Standarized Mess
I don't enjoy standardized tests...although I suppose I'd be hard-pressed to find somebody who really does. I have always performed average or below and I never feel it is an accurate representation of my potential. I dislike the fact that my ability to discern Electric Field lines and organic amine reactions will determine where I can study medicine. I don't enjoy remaining stagnant in my test scores and reviewing the stupid mistakes I make (although I suppose it's better I review them now for practice than wait to do so on the real thing). At some point along this Kaplan path you are expected to make a large jump in score, an increase of 4-5 points or higher. At the moment my score has increased a single point and it's becoming frustrating. I have one month before the actual test and I feel nervous for the first time. It's not often I question my abilities, at least as far as academics have gone, but I feel genuinely nervous for the next month. If I don't achieve my "ideal score" I can always retake the test in August but that would mean dropping out of either my research position or part-time hospital job for the summer, and it wouldl likely be research as that's not the paying gig. So I sit now, reviewing this 214 question clusterfuck and dreaming for a day when I can sleep in past 8 and find time to read a good book.
For anyone interested: Bond movie this monday is "Thunderball," thanks to Dougal. Also did anyone see that new South Park with Chef? Feel kind of bad for Issac Hayes but Scientology is ridiculous (although I suppose only slightly more ridiculous than most organized religious ideology).
Final note: V for Vendetta is OUTstanding. Besides Natalie Portman's impressive ability to pull off the shaved head look I truly wonder if people understand the political undertones or even care. Less than two months, my friends.
For anyone interested: Bond movie this monday is "Thunderball," thanks to Dougal. Also did anyone see that new South Park with Chef? Feel kind of bad for Issac Hayes but Scientology is ridiculous (although I suppose only slightly more ridiculous than most organized religious ideology).
Final note: V for Vendetta is OUTstanding. Besides Natalie Portman's impressive ability to pull off the shaved head look I truly wonder if people understand the political undertones or even care. Less than two months, my friends.