"Ay nigga hurry yo' ass up nigga!"
That's what I need to do. Hurry the fuck up and get my life together. It's become more and more apparent that I'm not living the life that I want, nor am I on track to be doing so soon. Well, the times they are a' changin', and I'm gonna make certain my fate.
School is causing me a great deal of distress. I hate going, I hate my classes, I hate just about everything about it. For the most part this is due to the fact that I don't want to take the classes I am. I enjoy Biology II, and my U.S. History class is cool, but Music Appreciation and English Comp suuuuuck. My professors, though fairly nice, rub me the wrong way with their teaching styles. I straight up walked out of English in the middle of class. The prof looked at me awkwardly as if to say, "Really nigga?" Sorry man, but when you piss me off everytime I'm in your presence, I think it's best we part ways. It's the same with Music Appreciation. I just stopped going.
I think I'm going to drop most of my classes. I definitely am going to drop M.A. and English. If my History teacher doesn't have an earlier class I can go to I'll drop that too. I'm going to stick with Bio II though, I like that class. And my teach is a GILF.
Sorry, just being honest.
Thing is, school is making me crazy. So is work. I just feel like I'm not moving toward anything I want to do in life. I want to be an actor, and to be honest I'll want to do that until I die. I can't imagine doing anything else, save for making music, which you can lump with drama in that dream category. I figure the best thing for me right now is to drop out of my classes and get as much money back as possible (if at all possible). Then go on as many auditions as possible. Start getting back in the game. Read as many scripts as possible. Read acting books, brush up on my skills. Pad that resume. Take those headshots. Start actually working toward that dream instead of just talking and thinking about it.
Same goes with music. Shit, how many musicians do I know? I'm sure I can start getting material out there somehow. Start writing songs. Start collaborating with artists. If the Mount Righteous Collective is too busy I know plenty of other people out there willing to pound out some beats. I just like to keep it closer to home, ya dig?
The next step would be to research conservatories, since obviously a liberal arts education isn't for me. I just want to study drama and all that goes with it. I could give a fuck about English Comp. I could give a fuck about Math, History, etc. etc. I'm not an ignorant person. If something interests me I research it, I try to learn more about it. Fact is, I don't feel like sitting in class for that shit that I already spent 12 years learning. My acting teacher and advisor in New York told me I should go to a conservatory and I let my Dad talk me out of it. Fuck that. I know that's the right move. When have I cared about what my parents think really? I just need to do what feels right for me.
And now about the Fast...
January was a hardcore party month. December wasn't much different. Matter of fact, since we moved into the apartment in November I've been doing whatever I want, most of which is drinking heavily, smoking copious amounts, tripping LSD whenever I got the chance, and partying all hours of the night.
So I figured I needed to get myself on an even keel. I need to get back to factory settings. Clear the system. If I'm going to get my life on the track I want I need to start by cleaning up my act. Get serious. Partying is great for the weekends, but we're talking daily here, which is just not gonna cut it. Let's grow up, huh?
I've done pretty well. I haven't smoked weed once since Monday. I was home alone all day with herb all over the place, and though tempted, I held my ground. I also haven't had a drop of alcohol. I've allowed myself to cheat a bit with cigarettes, since those have a tendency to keep me sane. Only one or two a day though, no more. I've been good about that too.
March 11th is the day it ends. I'm going to smoke a big cigar and kick back with a glass of whiskey and a smile. And hopefully by then I'll have changed my gameplan and started down the right road.
School is causing me a great deal of distress. I hate going, I hate my classes, I hate just about everything about it. For the most part this is due to the fact that I don't want to take the classes I am. I enjoy Biology II, and my U.S. History class is cool, but Music Appreciation and English Comp suuuuuck. My professors, though fairly nice, rub me the wrong way with their teaching styles. I straight up walked out of English in the middle of class. The prof looked at me awkwardly as if to say, "Really nigga?" Sorry man, but when you piss me off everytime I'm in your presence, I think it's best we part ways. It's the same with Music Appreciation. I just stopped going.
I think I'm going to drop most of my classes. I definitely am going to drop M.A. and English. If my History teacher doesn't have an earlier class I can go to I'll drop that too. I'm going to stick with Bio II though, I like that class. And my teach is a GILF.
Sorry, just being honest.
Thing is, school is making me crazy. So is work. I just feel like I'm not moving toward anything I want to do in life. I want to be an actor, and to be honest I'll want to do that until I die. I can't imagine doing anything else, save for making music, which you can lump with drama in that dream category. I figure the best thing for me right now is to drop out of my classes and get as much money back as possible (if at all possible). Then go on as many auditions as possible. Start getting back in the game. Read as many scripts as possible. Read acting books, brush up on my skills. Pad that resume. Take those headshots. Start actually working toward that dream instead of just talking and thinking about it.
Same goes with music. Shit, how many musicians do I know? I'm sure I can start getting material out there somehow. Start writing songs. Start collaborating with artists. If the Mount Righteous Collective is too busy I know plenty of other people out there willing to pound out some beats. I just like to keep it closer to home, ya dig?
The next step would be to research conservatories, since obviously a liberal arts education isn't for me. I just want to study drama and all that goes with it. I could give a fuck about English Comp. I could give a fuck about Math, History, etc. etc. I'm not an ignorant person. If something interests me I research it, I try to learn more about it. Fact is, I don't feel like sitting in class for that shit that I already spent 12 years learning. My acting teacher and advisor in New York told me I should go to a conservatory and I let my Dad talk me out of it. Fuck that. I know that's the right move. When have I cared about what my parents think really? I just need to do what feels right for me.
And now about the Fast...
January was a hardcore party month. December wasn't much different. Matter of fact, since we moved into the apartment in November I've been doing whatever I want, most of which is drinking heavily, smoking copious amounts, tripping LSD whenever I got the chance, and partying all hours of the night.
So I figured I needed to get myself on an even keel. I need to get back to factory settings. Clear the system. If I'm going to get my life on the track I want I need to start by cleaning up my act. Get serious. Partying is great for the weekends, but we're talking daily here, which is just not gonna cut it. Let's grow up, huh?
I've done pretty well. I haven't smoked weed once since Monday. I was home alone all day with herb all over the place, and though tempted, I held my ground. I also haven't had a drop of alcohol. I've allowed myself to cheat a bit with cigarettes, since those have a tendency to keep me sane. Only one or two a day though, no more. I've been good about that too.
March 11th is the day it ends. I'm going to smoke a big cigar and kick back with a glass of whiskey and a smile. And hopefully by then I'll have changed my gameplan and started down the right road.