Jul 30, 2006 21:52
I hate it. I hate it! Do we get to decide who we fall in love with?
Case 1:
She decides to manipulate me via seduction and increased intimacy.
I decide not to fall into her arms with lust because of social implications.
Case 2:
She had no choice. Something about me took away her power of choice.
I am just not attracted to her. She is creative, intelligent, caring, generous, but the magic has no effect on me.
Case 3:
She knows exactly what she wants and tried to get it from me.
I am afraid of letting people fall for me with any amount of seriousness so I pushed her away.
Whatever the case I can't escape the feeling of guilt. I'm sorry.
And I am sorry for making out with someone else that very same night. That wasn't exactly sensitive of me. But I guess that's what I do. It makes it easier for me. I'm sorry.