I don't know what to think...
The Security Administrator job that they were talking about giving to me at work has now been given to our current network administrator...
...so now there is a network admin spot open.
I got a phone call literally, right after the promotion annoucement email went out. My supervisor asked if I was ok, if I was pissed or upset or anything, because they had talked about giving me that position. Honestly, I was a little upset but I didn't want to sit on the phone and get all pissy and bitch about it. The thing is as well, the guy deserves it. He's a really hard, dedicated worker and I know its tough to give me a job like that when I work out of a remote office. So I understand why they did it... doesn't mean it doesn't irritate me. Honestly I just wanted to get off the call and go for a break. Just get out of the building for a few minutes and get some fresh air. So the conversation continues and irritats me a little more, and then I'm told
"I'm really not looking forward to sitting down with you in a couple months, for your review"
WTF!? was flying through my mind, so I asked "Why not? Am I that bad of a worker? Did I do something wrong? Something I need to improve drastically on?"
So then I'm told that its the complete opposite, and that the only reason my sup doesn't want to give me a review is because he has absolutly no idea what he's going to give me for a new job title. He made it seem apparent that I'm going to get one, as he says I'm too valuable of an employee and too good to only carry the title of PC tech. He talked about maybe giving me telephone work and making me a perminant #2 to the telecomm manager... However I really don't want that and I let him know if there's anyway to avoid that, please do so. I have no problems covereing for John or helping him out, I just can't stand that much telephone work nor can I imagine doing that all the time. It takes a special person to program or change things on a phone switch all day. I'm more of a network geek anyways.
So at this point I really don't know what to think or say. Because everything they've talked to me about either hasn't materialized or it's been given to someone else. At this point I feel like they have led me on... like a dog on a leash. At this point, about the only thing in my mind about this situation is that after all this if May 14th comes around and I don't get a new job title or new responsibilites with a good raise I'll probably just quit. Whether or not I have a new job. I refuse to be led on my entire life, and there's no way I can make a real carreer out of just following along and buying in to every bit of crap they spew out.