The past is always there to haunt you.
Just like the title says, it's always going to be there to haunt you.
I just got done reading some old entries from my ex Jon and let me tell you it KILLED me to read some of the things he wrote. I hurt him badly, I know this. I told him that I'd be with him forever and I'm not. Don't get me wrong I know this is for the better we fought too much. I'm not gonna lie though I do miss him in ways. Just the little things that made me fall in love with him in the first place you know. I can't change the past or predict the future. I just know that sometimes I just wish that I could just look at him and tell him that I am sorry and I never really meant to hurt him like he thinks I did. I don't hate him. I don't want him to hate me. I will always love him no matter what he thinks. I can only lie to myself for so long you know. It's almost been a year I do believe since we have been broken up, but he was always around me and it sucks bcuz the time we were together made things even harder you know? Grr, sometimes I just wish I could change it all, but I know I can't. So I am living for the moment. I do live Eric to death. =) So I guess I can smile about that these days.
"I wish you still loved me..."