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who will be my role model now that my role model is gone?
i have no motivation anymore. too many people are dead. i want to know where they go. i asked my dad what death felt like in a dream, and he showed me the brightest flash i've ever seen. but i haven't spoken with him since. instead, he walks around in the background with my uncle ricky. why can't i go back in time and live there forever? i don't enjoy now. and i don't look forward to the future. i'm a history major so i can keep past moments eternal.
it's impossible living like you'll die tomorrow. but what about living like you'll die in 30 years? i'm almost middle-aged. i should get my priorities straight. i become annoyed very easily now. i just want to be buried in warm sand and watch sunsets from the shore. i want to know what death feels like. i'm very curious about death and get annoyed by those who aren't. i think it helps you live better and healthier. life and death don't oppose each other. just enhance each other.
i'm lost at sea. and don't feel like swimming.
i need to find some role models who are still alive.
i have no motivation anymore. too many people are dead. i want to know where they go. i asked my dad what death felt like in a dream, and he showed me the brightest flash i've ever seen. but i haven't spoken with him since. instead, he walks around in the background with my uncle ricky. why can't i go back in time and live there forever? i don't enjoy now. and i don't look forward to the future. i'm a history major so i can keep past moments eternal.
it's impossible living like you'll die tomorrow. but what about living like you'll die in 30 years? i'm almost middle-aged. i should get my priorities straight. i become annoyed very easily now. i just want to be buried in warm sand and watch sunsets from the shore. i want to know what death feels like. i'm very curious about death and get annoyed by those who aren't. i think it helps you live better and healthier. life and death don't oppose each other. just enhance each other.
i'm lost at sea. and don't feel like swimming.
i need to find some role models who are still alive.