the things we do for love
last summer was the worst for us. we hardly spoke, we rarely showed any physical affection, and spent next to no free time together. we dodged each other on weekends, and evenings were most often spent in silence (or at best, were enjoyed with the sounds of television or music).
somehow, during this period of time, we both came to an agreement that what we needed on our front porch was a small bistro table and chairs set that we'd seen at target. i think that maybe we thought that this table for two would bring us closer together, by enticing us to share our dinners outside on the porch. it worked for a week, two at best.
i sat down at that table for a smoke last night, the first time i'd sat at it since last fall. sitting there with my cigarette and listening to some traffic in the distance, my mind wandered a bit and i admitted to myself that i was beginning to feel excitement about this change. the melodrama from earlier in the week had subsided and a review of my finances left me feeling both cash-strapped and surprisingly reassured that things wouldn't be as grim as i'd thought when i was back on just one salary.
as i recognized this feeling of excitement and acknowledged a sense of relief, it dawned on me that a table for one isn't all that bad...not that bad at all.
somehow, during this period of time, we both came to an agreement that what we needed on our front porch was a small bistro table and chairs set that we'd seen at target. i think that maybe we thought that this table for two would bring us closer together, by enticing us to share our dinners outside on the porch. it worked for a week, two at best.
i sat down at that table for a smoke last night, the first time i'd sat at it since last fall. sitting there with my cigarette and listening to some traffic in the distance, my mind wandered a bit and i admitted to myself that i was beginning to feel excitement about this change. the melodrama from earlier in the week had subsided and a review of my finances left me feeling both cash-strapped and surprisingly reassured that things wouldn't be as grim as i'd thought when i was back on just one salary.
as i recognized this feeling of excitement and acknowledged a sense of relief, it dawned on me that a table for one isn't all that bad...not that bad at all.