annoyed
just one of those days where you wish you could tell the people that need to fuck off -- to Fuck Off.
im practicing gratitude today -- rather than entertain the bitch-fest in my brain. Because there really isn't that much to gripe about -- on the surface of things and as things go. its just another day in the cog wheel of time -- however -- with the amount of change im experiencing and processing through the old chapters ending and new ones waiting to be written -- im finding myself annoyed. annoyed because its like a broken record that keeps skipping. I haven't disposed of it properly -- like its just going to mend itself or something. Only this broken record set up once again on the turntable to be played -- is as human concerns go -- tired and old. so i find myself standing in the spot light of the sun - beaming through the rain-shadow clouds - there. It is a beautiful world but i stand completely alone in it and though i do not feel bereft of something much more powerful than I -- i am confounded by my own restlessness in that place of peace and silence. sometimes its just too quiet but then it seems the noise from the outside -- is just fucking annoying.
im practicing gratitude today -- rather than entertain the bitch-fest in my brain. Because there really isn't that much to gripe about -- on the surface of things and as things go. its just another day in the cog wheel of time -- however -- with the amount of change im experiencing and processing through the old chapters ending and new ones waiting to be written -- im finding myself annoyed. annoyed because its like a broken record that keeps skipping. I haven't disposed of it properly -- like its just going to mend itself or something. Only this broken record set up once again on the turntable to be played -- is as human concerns go -- tired and old. so i find myself standing in the spot light of the sun - beaming through the rain-shadow clouds - there. It is a beautiful world but i stand completely alone in it and though i do not feel bereft of something much more powerful than I -- i am confounded by my own restlessness in that place of peace and silence. sometimes its just too quiet but then it seems the noise from the outside -- is just fucking annoying.