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i have a recurring bladder infection and the doc has me on anti-biotics and they make me nausious. ive been having dizzy spells - so the doctor has ordered a brain scan. i have a headache. im not feeling well. i went to a very intense yoga class yesterday - and my muscles are sore. i don't feel like eating - which is not like me at all. i had plans to do a bit of aerobic exercise at the gym and perhaps have a steam -- but im not sure what is best. i wanted to go to the library.
martin is working in france but will be here in two weeks or so. im trying to re-gain normalcy - so i feel sharp and energetic like usual. i'll get there - but i think traversing three continents and and an island in a matter of a 6 week period- was maybe too much! its all the changes in time and food temperatures and living/sleeping environments--plus the unnecessary drama my father has to instigate because he's bored and can't accept how powerless he really is - has taken an extreme toll on my physical health.
whilst i was in dallas - by the end of the exhausting trip - he had the audacity to suggest martin and i come for christmas - and that he wanted to pay for this. i told him he needed to call martin and extend the invitation himself - knowing well how martin would respond. of course martin feels its inappropriate - and said so to my dad on the phone. yeah martin. my father said he thought it was appropriate - when martin said he would discuss it with me and get back to him.
of course we are not going. martin is going to call him in a few weeks and talk to him. hopefully we will gain some respect from an old man who has completely lost the plot - but i don't have high hopes. furthermore - if hes got enough money to bring us both back to america - my health is more important - and i pisses me off to no end - that that is not being acknowledged first and foremost. it's all absolutely stupid and unconscionable on the part of the trustees. but it's out of my control. ive got to do the best i can with what ive got - and martin will be here soon in which case he'll have come up with a parcel of money and i think then ill be a bit more relaxed.
i need my brain to parse the material we are covering in my existential theory course. this week we are on keirkegaard and neitzie -- ill learn how to spell properly............
a bit achey on the head and belly today
anon
martin is working in france but will be here in two weeks or so. im trying to re-gain normalcy - so i feel sharp and energetic like usual. i'll get there - but i think traversing three continents and and an island in a matter of a 6 week period- was maybe too much! its all the changes in time and food temperatures and living/sleeping environments--plus the unnecessary drama my father has to instigate because he's bored and can't accept how powerless he really is - has taken an extreme toll on my physical health.
whilst i was in dallas - by the end of the exhausting trip - he had the audacity to suggest martin and i come for christmas - and that he wanted to pay for this. i told him he needed to call martin and extend the invitation himself - knowing well how martin would respond. of course martin feels its inappropriate - and said so to my dad on the phone. yeah martin. my father said he thought it was appropriate - when martin said he would discuss it with me and get back to him.
of course we are not going. martin is going to call him in a few weeks and talk to him. hopefully we will gain some respect from an old man who has completely lost the plot - but i don't have high hopes. furthermore - if hes got enough money to bring us both back to america - my health is more important - and i pisses me off to no end - that that is not being acknowledged first and foremost. it's all absolutely stupid and unconscionable on the part of the trustees. but it's out of my control. ive got to do the best i can with what ive got - and martin will be here soon in which case he'll have come up with a parcel of money and i think then ill be a bit more relaxed.
i need my brain to parse the material we are covering in my existential theory course. this week we are on keirkegaard and neitzie -- ill learn how to spell properly............
a bit achey on the head and belly today
anon