so far so good...
It's about half way through the summer which leaves me with just one thought....I still have to live here for half the summer. I love my family but I'm ready to get back to school. I miss everything so much. But I'm also enjoying the time I get to relax, lay out in the sun, work out, read and really dig into my devotions. They have been awesome lately. I went for a bike ride with my dad yesterday and we had a blast. He has been so different since my grandma died and its awesome to see the change in him. He's so much more patient and caring and he treats me like a princess...which is what I've always wanted. I guess the thing I really miss is companionship. I've been hanging out with people from work but all they do is sit around and complain while they drink, smoke and get high. Not quite how I like to spend every night of the week. I went up to Chautauqua Lake the other night to see Jen before she leaves for Australia. It was so nice to just stay up late and talk. Really talk. She gets me and I get her and its so nice to be understood and feel like you can be there for someone else too. That's what I miss. And I'm really going to miss her next year in the apartment. I'm anxious to see how the year will go. It's my senior year and I want to make the most of it. I just can't wait to find out where I'll be doing block, then student teaching, then eventually where I'll be working after I graduate. It's so exciting to realize that some big decisions in my life are gonna be made this year. And Matt is gonna be living right across the street which is just awesome. This long distance thing really sucks but it will be so worth it come the end of August. This weekend is my brother's graduation party and then I'm spending Sunday and Monday at Megan's cottage on Chautauqua Lake and we're going to the clubs in Canada! (well atleast Matt and I are!) So that will give me something to look forward to as I work in this nasty heat the next couple days. I talked to Poncho on the phone today and I hadn't heard from him since I came back from visiting him in El Paso. We talked for over an hour and that just made my day. He's hoping to visit this fall! I hope it works out cuz he's just an awesome brother and his girlfriend rocks too! And I got 2 letters from Ryan today so I was feeling pretty special. Wow, remembering all this really makes me feel like a punk for being kinda depressed. I think I just successfully cheered myself up.