Surreallllllll.
I still can't believe it. I always fantasized about her showing up on my doorstep some day and begging for forgiveness. Maybe 6 months ago I would have ignored her or spit in her face, but I'm willing to hear her out. If her apology is worthy, then I guess you can say I have my best friend back. And I know you're thinking "But things will never be the same!", but truly you don't understand everything we had been through before she just threw me away. What made it so hard, not having her as a best friend, was the fact that I had invested so much of myself in out friendship and I had believed that she had too. How can you throw away someone who means so much to you? The first thing I wanted to say to her in response was "Sorry.", but what the fuck am I apologizing for?
I've read her message over and over and she left so much unsaid but it's all there because even after a whole year, I know how she thinks. I always knew that she could hold a grudge for ages and believe it or not, in the 5 years of our friendship we never had a fight. I must admit that I'm quite surprised that she reached out to me after I stopped trying long ago. Believe me when I say that she shows great courage and humility by contacting me. It's just not her way. She's just not the kind of person to apologize and I accept her attempt to show just how serious and sorry she is. Again, I never thought this would happen. I never ever thought she would be the one who reached out to me. This worries me though, I'm afraid that I will not find her to be in the best condition. It makes me wonder what could have driven her to be so desperate for my friendship. One thing I immediately thought of was "OMG, I hope she isn't pregnant." Because when she got knocked up that last time, it's the clearest memory in my head. She cried on my shoulder for hours.
My Father has warned me and I'm sure my mother will too. In fact, if i decide to tell my friends, they will too. Everyone seems to be worried that she is in need of money or something. But I refuse to believe that. Patty would never stoop so low to ask me for money after everything. And I wouldn't give it to her and I hope she knows it. I just hope she hasn' it rock bottom. Even if she has, I'll be there for her and i hope that no one would think I'd do anything different. I'm just that kind of person. When a friend needs help, I'm the first one there.
And though she hasn't even made her apology yet.....
Apology accepted.
I've read her message over and over and she left so much unsaid but it's all there because even after a whole year, I know how she thinks. I always knew that she could hold a grudge for ages and believe it or not, in the 5 years of our friendship we never had a fight. I must admit that I'm quite surprised that she reached out to me after I stopped trying long ago. Believe me when I say that she shows great courage and humility by contacting me. It's just not her way. She's just not the kind of person to apologize and I accept her attempt to show just how serious and sorry she is. Again, I never thought this would happen. I never ever thought she would be the one who reached out to me. This worries me though, I'm afraid that I will not find her to be in the best condition. It makes me wonder what could have driven her to be so desperate for my friendship. One thing I immediately thought of was "OMG, I hope she isn't pregnant." Because when she got knocked up that last time, it's the clearest memory in my head. She cried on my shoulder for hours.
My Father has warned me and I'm sure my mother will too. In fact, if i decide to tell my friends, they will too. Everyone seems to be worried that she is in need of money or something. But I refuse to believe that. Patty would never stoop so low to ask me for money after everything. And I wouldn't give it to her and I hope she knows it. I just hope she hasn' it rock bottom. Even if she has, I'll be there for her and i hope that no one would think I'd do anything different. I'm just that kind of person. When a friend needs help, I'm the first one there.
And though she hasn't even made her apology yet.....
Apology accepted.