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Helen had a rough day yesterday and didn't get to sleep until late. She just wanted me to hold her and would grab my neck in a death grip if I tried to put her down. She was probably playing me, but she was weeping so pitifully! As a result, I'm exhausted today. And thankful, once again, that I don't have a pile of scoping to face at home. When Helen goes to bed, I'm SPENT. I can barely get the kitchen cleaned and the living room/dining room picked up before I fall out from exhaustion.
I was just telling a friend that I cannot wait for fireplace weather. I plan to spend a lot of time in front of it this winter! Not scoping! It's weird -- looking back through the years, so much of my free evening/weekend time has been taken up by scoping (or thinking about all the scoping I needed to be doing!) but I've never considered it a big part of my life. But it was! Just hanging out on the couch in the evenings with nothing hanging over my head is such a foreign thing to me -- I have a hard time settling down to do it, whether it's with a book, magazine, music or even watching TV. Since 2003, either as a court reporter or a scopist, I have been so conditioned to be sitting at my desk on the computer working while the TV is on in the background that that's what I do in my free time now. I even still sometimes eat in front of the computer. Which is dumb because what I used to love to do was sit with a good book while eating lunch or dinner (if I was alone).
I need to break those habits because they're totally unnecessary now. After Helen goes to bed and my chores are done, I need to sit on my couch, actually watch and pay attention to a TV show if I'm interested in it, and turn it off if I'm not actively watching to read or do something else. And I need to break out my knitting bag again. I still haven't finished Helen's baby blanket! I need to add more rows and turn it into a toddler blanket at this point. I cannot even remember the last time I sat down to watch a movie. There is no way I'd sit there for two-plus hours and not be on the computer at the same time. I used to love to sit down after a long, stressful day and get lost in a good movie.
I blame court reporting for getting me into this bad place, but I can't blame it anymore.
I hate that my default is to sit at my desk, clicking mindlessly through the same old internet sites, listening to the TV in the background. Hate. Tonight that's going to change!
I was just telling a friend that I cannot wait for fireplace weather. I plan to spend a lot of time in front of it this winter! Not scoping! It's weird -- looking back through the years, so much of my free evening/weekend time has been taken up by scoping (or thinking about all the scoping I needed to be doing!) but I've never considered it a big part of my life. But it was! Just hanging out on the couch in the evenings with nothing hanging over my head is such a foreign thing to me -- I have a hard time settling down to do it, whether it's with a book, magazine, music or even watching TV. Since 2003, either as a court reporter or a scopist, I have been so conditioned to be sitting at my desk on the computer working while the TV is on in the background that that's what I do in my free time now. I even still sometimes eat in front of the computer. Which is dumb because what I used to love to do was sit with a good book while eating lunch or dinner (if I was alone).
I need to break those habits because they're totally unnecessary now. After Helen goes to bed and my chores are done, I need to sit on my couch, actually watch and pay attention to a TV show if I'm interested in it, and turn it off if I'm not actively watching to read or do something else. And I need to break out my knitting bag again. I still haven't finished Helen's baby blanket! I need to add more rows and turn it into a toddler blanket at this point. I cannot even remember the last time I sat down to watch a movie. There is no way I'd sit there for two-plus hours and not be on the computer at the same time. I used to love to sit down after a long, stressful day and get lost in a good movie.
I blame court reporting for getting me into this bad place, but I can't blame it anymore.
I hate that my default is to sit at my desk, clicking mindlessly through the same old internet sites, listening to the TV in the background. Hate. Tonight that's going to change!