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Did my first performing in a while last night. I'm coming to terms with the fact that I have a problem with anxiety. Which totally sucks by the way.
But I did it, and it went ok, I didn't spew, faint, or die.
In a totally nerdy aside I'm loving my new thumb rest. Yup!
And my saxomaphone is great, though I'm finding I have no time to practice. Did some soprano playing last night. It blew goats. That's what I get for being too busy to attend rehearsals and practice. Big plops. Small children were better than me....I want to feel good for them, but I don't. So there.
Had a good talk about anxiety with my love this morning. I'm both sad and happy by the fact he knows what I'm talking about. It's like having an extra super-mean version of yourself in your head constantly shooting down any praise or happiness you try and give yourself. Makes me tired.
I have a hangover
But I did it, and it went ok, I didn't spew, faint, or die.
In a totally nerdy aside I'm loving my new thumb rest. Yup!
And my saxomaphone is great, though I'm finding I have no time to practice. Did some soprano playing last night. It blew goats. That's what I get for being too busy to attend rehearsals and practice. Big plops. Small children were better than me....I want to feel good for them, but I don't. So there.
Had a good talk about anxiety with my love this morning. I'm both sad and happy by the fact he knows what I'm talking about. It's like having an extra super-mean version of yourself in your head constantly shooting down any praise or happiness you try and give yourself. Makes me tired.
I have a hangover