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Right now I just spiraled into a ridiculous state of depression.
I'm not happy...
I haven't been happy...
I'm in love but I see my reflection in the mirror...
and that makes me scared...
Scared that I'm not pretty enough...
That I'm not everything he wants or needs
and yet when I know deep down in my heart that I am...
I can't seem to let it sink in
I feel lost
and angry
and apathedic at the same time
I used to feel like this a lot
this is so firmiliar...
and yet so unwelcomed...
It's like I don't want to do anything today...
I just want to curl up in a ball
and keep telling myself to stop thinking so hard
and being so "dramatic"
After all...that's what EVERYONE calls me...
I'm not happy...
I haven't been happy...
I'm in love but I see my reflection in the mirror...
and that makes me scared...
Scared that I'm not pretty enough...
That I'm not everything he wants or needs
and yet when I know deep down in my heart that I am...
I can't seem to let it sink in
I feel lost
and angry
and apathedic at the same time
I used to feel like this a lot
this is so firmiliar...
and yet so unwelcomed...
It's like I don't want to do anything today...
I just want to curl up in a ball
and keep telling myself to stop thinking so hard
and being so "dramatic"
After all...that's what EVERYONE calls me...