paint with all the colors of the wind
ignored more and more each day
eh im starting getting used to not being wanted
what a life im living
i really am just going through the motions,
i havent really felt anything lately, except this wanting of things so badly that it physically hurts, not to mention the mental pain. im making myself sick. ://
maybe thats why i always need music. it helps distract me every time im ignored..i just listen, and forget.
but as i keep saying...thats no fun!
ehh well. so apparently a lot of people see me walking all around mission viejo. which i do, on tuesdays and thursdays. but yeah. its cool that all of the people who saw me said hi to me, and brought it up at school today. they dont ignore me, and i dont even talk to them. maybe once people get to know me they just find me annoying. probably. hmm. well hopefully next year ill find a way to get closer to some of the IB people, have more friends i can always turn to. thatd be nice.
i just watched pocahontas. it made me happy. :) hebrew school was alright today. i just feel like a flake..i dropped out of the band part of it and the Torah reading. im sorry. its just too much. i cant handle it right now. eh.
sorry if i yelled at you today. i yelled a lot..i was not in a happy mood. sorry.
eh im starting getting used to not being wanted
what a life im living
i really am just going through the motions,
i havent really felt anything lately, except this wanting of things so badly that it physically hurts, not to mention the mental pain. im making myself sick. ://
maybe thats why i always need music. it helps distract me every time im ignored..i just listen, and forget.
but as i keep saying...thats no fun!
ehh well. so apparently a lot of people see me walking all around mission viejo. which i do, on tuesdays and thursdays. but yeah. its cool that all of the people who saw me said hi to me, and brought it up at school today. they dont ignore me, and i dont even talk to them. maybe once people get to know me they just find me annoying. probably. hmm. well hopefully next year ill find a way to get closer to some of the IB people, have more friends i can always turn to. thatd be nice.
i just watched pocahontas. it made me happy. :) hebrew school was alright today. i just feel like a flake..i dropped out of the band part of it and the Torah reading. im sorry. its just too much. i cant handle it right now. eh.
sorry if i yelled at you today. i yelled a lot..i was not in a happy mood. sorry.