I decided not to wait.
I wonder what ties this blog entry to 3. I guess I'll just try to connect things.
03 November 2008
I was in Shang and Mega; was supposed to meet Jeff. We didn't meet. Time conflict. Anyways, while killing time before our supposed meeting, as usual I was loitering in PowerBooks. I was still deliberating should I buy Breaking Dawn or wait further. And should I opt for the former, I was wondering if it's in Mega-PB or Shang-PB. Rachel, my textmate of the day, told me, "Hindi naman siguro tatanungin ng tao kung saang branch ka bumili." [People won't ask which branch you've bought (Breaking Dawn).] Yeah, right. Heehee.. I was just being choosy. I care where my 12% VAT goes.
By the way, I decided not to wait. I've finally bought Breaking Dawn in Shang-PowerBooks. Delaying so means going to bookstore again. I just have to stop being tempted. Books are so tempting. I need to buy clothes too. And besides, I have enough books unread at home. Don't forget my nursing books! *sigh*
And because I came home quite late (than my usual around 6 o'clock) I decided to sleep early. I was also tired. I already have Breaking Dawn with me. I so wanted to read it already but I might not be able to sleep before midnight and I'd be accountable to God. It was so tempting to read, even just a few pages. But I know myself enough that I'd probably end up sleeping at the time when I'm supposed to be waking up.
Oh book! How do I resist thee?
04 November 2008
11:40, UMak Library. I started reading Breaking Dawn, only after I've read a couple of pages from my MCN notes. Of course, I still need to fill my head with nurse's stuff and not just vamp stuff. It's not healthy, I know. I've suffered enough of that. But of course, my impatience grew every minute. I just wanted to dig into the story. I decided to wait no further.
As for the "3" thing, I was with three of my batchmates. Not so hang out thingy though, just got near them. I had my own table, one like those in FHS' canteen.
Btw, it's U.S. Presidential Election Day. I wonder how America's doing. It's still 16:50 something in Uncle Sam's watch.
05 November 2008
03:30. I woke up around this time. I can't remember what woke me up, maybe risk for aspiration. I can't even remember anything from my dream. The only memories bombarding my "empty" brain was Breaking Dawn stuff. I hate it, seriously. Someone was also lurking in my mind, which I've come to get used to. I've learned to cope with that, somehow.
I've been trying to extract anything from my brain about what it was up to before I came into consciousness. I have theories on why I couldn't remember a thing. My subconscious was strong enough to wrestle with my consciousness. Or maybe the "thing" would just cause me anxiety, thus subconscious was on the go protecting myself. But I'd bet on this theory: I have a bad memory.
Whatever I had on that dream gave me a bloody headache. Or maybe I had headache that's why I woke up. Either way. my headache is alarming/bothering me. I have headaches every month, at least twice. What actually bothered me was something I've read in my Nx notes. Headache is one of the signs and symptoms of HPN. The last time I had my BP taken, it was 120/70. That may be a couple of months ago but my BP had always been 90/60 since we started having RLE rotations. That was August 2006. Yes, for two years my BP had always been in the threshold.
The other thing that bothered me, which I've also read in my Nx notes, was pain in MI can cause shock. I was not having MI. Angina? hopefully not. Anyways, I wondered if a headache can cause shock. Seriously, what was I thinking? If you think I'm crazy, don't worry I've thought of that eons ago.
With these concerns in mind (I'm just making my head ache more) I decided to get up and go on hydro therapy. I'm not really fond of analgesics; thanks to my high pain tolerance. Btw, I still have a headache. Right temple. -_-