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So....Cali. 10 days left until i move and i don't know whether to type about how excited and scared i am or go and pack. My parents are wonderful. I seriously don't know anyone whos parents would just throw money into helping one of their kids(and one of their friends) do something like this. A lot of people would say i'm spoiled, and that may be true, but if they knew anything about me they would know i'm not greedy about it.
Anyway, I'm kinda at the point where im starting not to care about people here like i used to. Ive actually been a little dissappointed in people lately. I just feel kinda bad for a lot of people here, but its the resentful type of sympathy. It's where i feel bad because they're wallowing in their own mysery but they're not DOING anything about it other than complaining or talking about how it could be better. UGH! But then again looking at it from other peoples point of view who don't have the undying support of their parents i can definately see how it would be harder(although not impossible) to do what they want. You really do create your own reality.
I guess I'm just happy to be leaving but maybe a little resentful because i know im safe here and Cali is so new and...not intimidating...but not secure. Obviously i can't put how i feel about it into words because even i'm not understanding the point i'm trying to get across. Maybe it's just stress and anxiety. Tomorrow i mail off the lease and as soon as they get it over there we're good to go and the only thing i'll have left to worry about is getting all my crap together and packing... :-D Later!