manic update
So, I obviously fell of the livejournal wagon for a long time. Here's to climbing back on--the last two weeks have been nuts. I broke up with Tom for the second time a couple of weeks ago. I liked him, but we weren't really right for each other. Unfortunately he is very comforting, and makes me feel calmer. I have been so stressed out lately, which has made it hard for me to keep my distance, but we are definitely not getting back together. I felt unusually comfortable around him from the beginning, and I think this is because I don't worry about having to impress him. Around a lot of other people I feel uninteresting. I don't have as much to talk about anymore, and just feel kind of dull compared to my friends. Also, our conversational styles are pretty similar (I remember learning about how people feel more comfortable when they can "blend" with other's speech patterns) and I feel like his attention is solidly on me. And, the biggest reason why he is so comforting is that he is just super affectionate, a good hugger, and comfortable with me being affectionate. I crave touch all the time.
Most of you also heard about my job offer a week and a half ago. Our office manager in Houston decided to leave to take care of her new baby, and they offered me the position, but I would have had to move to Houston, and be an office manager. I declined the offer after an agonizing weekend of heavy thinking about my future. I decided I didn't see my lifetime career in this company, although I am happy to stay there for now. After finding some potential interests, I decided to sign up for a class and an internship for the summer, on top of my regular job. I am now stressing that I have resigned myself to a summer of no travel and no fun, just when everyone else will be having more play time. But, I will have more to talk about, and will hopefully meet cool people from the internship. I wanted a challenge and an adventure, so this should certainly do the job.
Most of you also heard about my job offer a week and a half ago. Our office manager in Houston decided to leave to take care of her new baby, and they offered me the position, but I would have had to move to Houston, and be an office manager. I declined the offer after an agonizing weekend of heavy thinking about my future. I decided I didn't see my lifetime career in this company, although I am happy to stay there for now. After finding some potential interests, I decided to sign up for a class and an internship for the summer, on top of my regular job. I am now stressing that I have resigned myself to a summer of no travel and no fun, just when everyone else will be having more play time. But, I will have more to talk about, and will hopefully meet cool people from the internship. I wanted a challenge and an adventure, so this should certainly do the job.