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Today was the 2nd prenatal class. We talked about "Labour and Delivery". It was very interesting. It makes a lot of sense to me, especially because I am reading a book about childbirth written by a mid-wife. I wanted a mid-wife. I still want one. But I know I can't get one. So, I'm learning through the experiences written in the book, by so many women who had natural childbirths. And by natural, I mean, no medical intervention. Of course, there are the cases that no medical intervention would be disastrous, but that's not the focus of the book. The book's focus is to tell you much your body is capable of dealing with all the changes and pain. They have natural pain relievers too.
I had already decided beforehand to not have medical intervention, if at all possible. Today, confirmed it when she showed us how the interventions are administered. I cringe at how much drugs can change the body. It was nice to have an explanation of what the drugs do and that to acknowledge situations that it would be important to have them in. The last thing I want is to endanger the baby.
So, here I am, thinking way too much before going to bed. My problem is that I want to be in control. I want everything to go my way and am I really willing to let that go?
But you know what's crazy? At the end of the day, I'm really excited about the delivery process. Now that I know what to expect and why things are happening, I'm like, "wow, God planned that?" That I think is super cool. Like, at times I'm like, "Why did God plan pregnancy to be like how it is?", but learning how the baby comes out, I'm impressed. The angles, the reasoning. It's just like "wow".
As you can tell, my thoughts are everywhere and will probably still be like that.
I know you can't make God show up. But seriously, every now and than for the past few weeks, I just know when God is there. It does help that I have practice in recognizing when it happens. And I like it. Stuff is going on, I just wish I knew what. I wish I knew what to do.
I had already decided beforehand to not have medical intervention, if at all possible. Today, confirmed it when she showed us how the interventions are administered. I cringe at how much drugs can change the body. It was nice to have an explanation of what the drugs do and that to acknowledge situations that it would be important to have them in. The last thing I want is to endanger the baby.
So, here I am, thinking way too much before going to bed. My problem is that I want to be in control. I want everything to go my way and am I really willing to let that go?
But you know what's crazy? At the end of the day, I'm really excited about the delivery process. Now that I know what to expect and why things are happening, I'm like, "wow, God planned that?" That I think is super cool. Like, at times I'm like, "Why did God plan pregnancy to be like how it is?", but learning how the baby comes out, I'm impressed. The angles, the reasoning. It's just like "wow".
As you can tell, my thoughts are everywhere and will probably still be like that.
I know you can't make God show up. But seriously, every now and than for the past few weeks, I just know when God is there. It does help that I have practice in recognizing when it happens. And I like it. Stuff is going on, I just wish I knew what. I wish I knew what to do.