you were beautiful back then
This has been a year of ups and downs, twists and turns, and ins and outs; as is every other year. Except I think this year was a major landmark in my life. This year, people and events changed me forever. I used to be different, I used to have one way that I did things and I wouldn’t budge for anyone or anything. Then I realized I was holding onto these things…these values, for other people and not for myself. I no longer believed in every little thing that I used to believe in. I realized I’d been spending the last year or so too afraid to change my mind and my perspective on life. But I didn’t want people to think I sold out or gave in, and more importantly I didn’t want to let anyone down. I spent so much time inadvertently building up a reputation of who I am that I became terrified of change. But with a little help from certain situations and certain people I realized that not changing to please others is just as bad as changing to please others. And perhaps that’s the most important lesson I learned this year.
you once were a sweet little girl,
so innocent and pure,
your eyes were open and sure that anyone could look right in,
and i followed closely your gaze,
you looked up towards the sky,
and i watched your face drift away,
other things had caught your eye