therapy today
i'm not sure how i feel about my counseling. i know i've only been to a few sessions, but...
i don't know, my doctor is nice, i really think she's only a few years older than me. she doesn't have any recommendations and when she gives her opinions, it's just really feeble.
like today, she told me she thinks i should journal. everytime i get aggravated or depressed i should write down why. she says i never have to look at it again, but by thinking about what bothers me and writing through it, well i guess some people find it healing. so anyway, she says i should do this, but them completely backs down and is like, if that is something you're open to doing. i personally want her to tell me what to do, in her professional opinion. plus she keeps asking me about stuff that i find irrelevant. like i had mentioned to her that i played the flute for many years. i used to identify myself as a flutist, but not anymore. well she wants to know why i had a falling out with my flute and why i don't really play anymore. she feels like i had this relationship with my flute and that it needs some closure. hmm....i mean she's the professional.
in flute news i am doing my old highschool's musical again. it's a play called "babe's in arms" which i've never heard of. but one of the song's is "my funny valentine" which i kind of like. so i guess all my "flute issues" are going to come up because now i'm being forced to practice. i guess the thing that bother's me most is that i like performing. and when i do the musical, it just kind of depresses me that i'm not performing on a regular basis.
other than that, i had jury duty yesterday. i thought it was fun. i got a paid day off from work and i sat in a room and read all day. i didn't even get questioned, though i was dissappointed cause i did want to get questioned and see the courtroom and everything. but the case i got picked to be questioned for settled at the last minute.
i don't know, my doctor is nice, i really think she's only a few years older than me. she doesn't have any recommendations and when she gives her opinions, it's just really feeble.
like today, she told me she thinks i should journal. everytime i get aggravated or depressed i should write down why. she says i never have to look at it again, but by thinking about what bothers me and writing through it, well i guess some people find it healing. so anyway, she says i should do this, but them completely backs down and is like, if that is something you're open to doing. i personally want her to tell me what to do, in her professional opinion. plus she keeps asking me about stuff that i find irrelevant. like i had mentioned to her that i played the flute for many years. i used to identify myself as a flutist, but not anymore. well she wants to know why i had a falling out with my flute and why i don't really play anymore. she feels like i had this relationship with my flute and that it needs some closure. hmm....i mean she's the professional.
in flute news i am doing my old highschool's musical again. it's a play called "babe's in arms" which i've never heard of. but one of the song's is "my funny valentine" which i kind of like. so i guess all my "flute issues" are going to come up because now i'm being forced to practice. i guess the thing that bother's me most is that i like performing. and when i do the musical, it just kind of depresses me that i'm not performing on a regular basis.
other than that, i had jury duty yesterday. i thought it was fun. i got a paid day off from work and i sat in a room and read all day. i didn't even get questioned, though i was dissappointed cause i did want to get questioned and see the courtroom and everything. but the case i got picked to be questioned for settled at the last minute.