i need drugs or something
well, i went on my annual trip to stratford to watch two plays. they were a midsummer night's dream(african, 30's setting. very beautiful with the fairies on trapeezes and bungees, and i met puck and oberon(rick hammil, and something something)) and guys and dolls(the best off all plays ive seen so far,i felt like i was in broadway, very fancy, lots of great music, a pretty good story{for a musical i guess} and just great.) this is with a group of about fourty ppl, three teachers and rest kids. it was extremely fun, we all went shopping and me and about five others went around looking for good make-up to pretty me up on the five hour bus ride home. i wore a wig, lip gloss, nail polish, eye liner, eye shadow, maskara, and at a point, a french maid outfit. ironic thing was is that i later realised while this was going on, everyone else was watching rocky horror picture show, so no matter where you direct your gaze, you were going to witness some odd drag queen antics.
the entire thing was wonderful except for one thing.
violet mckay...or something like that...doesnt look right to me, proba....anyways, i talked to her about the first play for about three minutes(mainly about how i love the show, and i've never seen anything like it) what comes after is weird, because i was talking to half the group like this, so i wasn't lavishing her with attention or anything. but anyways,after talking to her four a couple minutes, she started following me around like a lost puppy. she fell in love with me because i talked to her. i feel i must state this now, she is the school desparate virgin, and is quite infamous(....doesn't look right...infamous...maybe....whatever) anyways, needy doesn't serve justice for her actions (navah, you can relate here, i'm sure)
but it was nigh fucking impossible to get away from her, she was frigging stalking me all around the theatre and city. this happened once before, and at that time i wanted to bash her head in, but her having the nerve to try this again, i wanted to slit her throat in front of her family and pets, or whatever she considers her friends. i tried to get away from her, but in vain in the theatre, tho i managed to hide in the city for awhile. it got to the point where i started mentioning my "girlfriend". but that didnt seem to work. at this point, slitting her families and "friends" throats before killing her seemed a good idea.
so i stepped it up a bit and became a bi-sexual, thinking this goodly christian girl would back off. but no, shes one of those two faced christians who act good but are worse than athiasts(hi!)so it (go figure) turned her on more. fuck. i was really trapped here, and running out of options, except for just throwing her against a wall and telling her she should kill herself, politely stating that im gay and dont like girls at all, or grabbing someone else and making out with them in front of her. all three of witch i didnt want to do. or...kill her!...wait...goddamn laws...
well, anyways(oh i forgot to mention, she sat beside me in both plays, and about three quarters of both were spent by her staring at me, while feelling so nervous from it that i thought i would snap and start biting people's necks and starting a nice little broadway massacre)we were on our last stop on the way back home, when, in line at a wendy's(i think i just got some home fries or something) she asked me, and i quote "even if you are a bi- sexual, would you want to go out with me, because i wouldnt mind if you like guys too" and i said after staring at her for about a minute, and i quote "i hate you" and i walked off. no emotion in the statement, just a matter of fact like comment, which i thought was slightly clever, and after that thought i should put that in a movie, because thinking after that, it seemed quite humorous.
until she kept trying about ten minutes later. fuck. well, i gave up, i looked to my friend andrea and,understanding my own desparation to get away from the ultimate definition of desparation, she let me sit with her, and she lied on me while i had my arm around her, and whenever violet had the urge to look back at me, we would lightly rub each others arms and gaze adoringly at each other. tho a couple times, we coulnd't help but laught at the thought of this actually happening(never would, too good of friends to even think of it) but ya, other than violet, it would have been heaven...i hope her death is slow.
anyways, sorry about the extremely long journal, but since i never get to talk anymore, i felt it was right. i love you two with all my heart, stay alive so i can see you two sometime.
the entire thing was wonderful except for one thing.
violet mckay...or something like that...doesnt look right to me, proba....anyways, i talked to her about the first play for about three minutes(mainly about how i love the show, and i've never seen anything like it) what comes after is weird, because i was talking to half the group like this, so i wasn't lavishing her with attention or anything. but anyways,after talking to her four a couple minutes, she started following me around like a lost puppy. she fell in love with me because i talked to her. i feel i must state this now, she is the school desparate virgin, and is quite infamous(....doesn't look right...infamous...maybe....whatever) anyways, needy doesn't serve justice for her actions (navah, you can relate here, i'm sure)
but it was nigh fucking impossible to get away from her, she was frigging stalking me all around the theatre and city. this happened once before, and at that time i wanted to bash her head in, but her having the nerve to try this again, i wanted to slit her throat in front of her family and pets, or whatever she considers her friends. i tried to get away from her, but in vain in the theatre, tho i managed to hide in the city for awhile. it got to the point where i started mentioning my "girlfriend". but that didnt seem to work. at this point, slitting her families and "friends" throats before killing her seemed a good idea.
so i stepped it up a bit and became a bi-sexual, thinking this goodly christian girl would back off. but no, shes one of those two faced christians who act good but are worse than athiasts(hi!)so it (go figure) turned her on more. fuck. i was really trapped here, and running out of options, except for just throwing her against a wall and telling her she should kill herself, politely stating that im gay and dont like girls at all, or grabbing someone else and making out with them in front of her. all three of witch i didnt want to do. or...kill her!...wait...goddamn laws...
well, anyways(oh i forgot to mention, she sat beside me in both plays, and about three quarters of both were spent by her staring at me, while feelling so nervous from it that i thought i would snap and start biting people's necks and starting a nice little broadway massacre)we were on our last stop on the way back home, when, in line at a wendy's(i think i just got some home fries or something) she asked me, and i quote "even if you are a bi- sexual, would you want to go out with me, because i wouldnt mind if you like guys too" and i said after staring at her for about a minute, and i quote "i hate you" and i walked off. no emotion in the statement, just a matter of fact like comment, which i thought was slightly clever, and after that thought i should put that in a movie, because thinking after that, it seemed quite humorous.
until she kept trying about ten minutes later. fuck. well, i gave up, i looked to my friend andrea and,understanding my own desparation to get away from the ultimate definition of desparation, she let me sit with her, and she lied on me while i had my arm around her, and whenever violet had the urge to look back at me, we would lightly rub each others arms and gaze adoringly at each other. tho a couple times, we coulnd't help but laught at the thought of this actually happening(never would, too good of friends to even think of it) but ya, other than violet, it would have been heaven...i hope her death is slow.
anyways, sorry about the extremely long journal, but since i never get to talk anymore, i felt it was right. i love you two with all my heart, stay alive so i can see you two sometime.