I miss my mom....
Hello
It's been about a month since my mom died, I've been handling it rather weirdly....sad but happy, relieved but guilty...it's a hodgepodge of emotions that are tangled up inside me now.
I thought that perhaps I could make it through, y'know, just moving through the fog...it's kinda confusing a little....there's a sufficient amount of stress at home with mortgage and other bills, been trying to find some work to help out but it sucks because I'm like super entry level (never got a job because caring for my mother WAS my job....hell, I never even learned how to drive because of it too....that and I'm afraid of driving.) So alot of jobs are cut short because of those factors.
But I'm not in the doldrums....because lolling there won't change anything that happened..all I can really do is move on.
I'll find a way....I won't give up, I'm scared but that's life....anyhoo, my mom's up there in heaven with all the cheesecake she can eat LOL!
Sorry for the depressing entry...I'll be more upbeat! Penis! That's the ticket!!
It's been about a month since my mom died, I've been handling it rather weirdly....sad but happy, relieved but guilty...it's a hodgepodge of emotions that are tangled up inside me now.
I thought that perhaps I could make it through, y'know, just moving through the fog...it's kinda confusing a little....there's a sufficient amount of stress at home with mortgage and other bills, been trying to find some work to help out but it sucks because I'm like super entry level (never got a job because caring for my mother WAS my job....hell, I never even learned how to drive because of it too....that and I'm afraid of driving.) So alot of jobs are cut short because of those factors.
But I'm not in the doldrums....because lolling there won't change anything that happened..all I can really do is move on.
I'll find a way....I won't give up, I'm scared but that's life....anyhoo, my mom's up there in heaven with all the cheesecake she can eat LOL!
Sorry for the depressing entry...I'll be more upbeat! Penis! That's the ticket!!