okay...
okay. so i don't know how to say this. but basically this is a giant cop-out. Because i don't want to call all my friends and tell them the truth and have to explain myself and I don't want to deal with all the rumors, and i know how certain ppl are going to react and i know there going to find out eventually so why even try to hide it even for a little while. This is so crazy because yesterday the most important thing iw as worried about was my psych lab and now everything has turned completely upside down. I didn't think I was, but I am. I'm pregnant. I'm sorry guys. It feels terrible to feel so awful about something like a baby but i do. I told my parents and its just awful. But at least bryan's really good about it, I have to count my blessings as i feel like i have os few of them right now. My parents want me to give it up for adoption but i couldn't ever do that so i'm just going to have to make it work, and i know all the people who really care will be there for me anyway. Bryan's coming home today to be with me, and we've decided that were going to get married, that it would be the best thing for us. And we really want to be together so although the timing isn't what we planned we are still really lucky to have eachother. Its just so wierd because next week im going to have to go back to school and finish up the year when i dont even know if i can go next semester?! I just don't know what im going to do. but you know me, i'll survive.