Stress = vent
So lately i have been in a good mood untill today. i dont exsatly know what is wrong but all i know is that im ready to go back to vist my friends that i hvnt seen in a year (+) i havent seen my best friend chantelle in 10 months, my the rest of my friends since september, or since graduation in 2006 of may, then i move to this dumb town called shawano in the middle of nowhere. i am so done with doing the same damn thing every single day. im sick of not being able to be with the friends that i grew up with and im sick not havning many friends to hang out with and chill with in times like now, my best friend Becky isnt in the best shape, she has to have radiation treatemt for tumors in her right arm and its stressful for her. she also has enough problems of her own that she has to deal with rite now, and this isnt really some thing that see needs, My 93 year old grandmothers kidneys are being destroyed, she dosent have very long to live. i know that she is old but still shes my grandma and she always was there you know giving me candy when my mom wasnt looking, and money and all the amazing birthday presents, then it was the great stories she had for me about when she was a kid. i dont know why all of a sudden that im so stressed, and i dont know what has come over me. maybe it the amount of bad news and missing interactions with the friends ive spent more then half of my life with and my high school friends, i cant even see my best friend laurens or hillarys baby shower because i live so far away i mean i guess that it could be worse, but long distant things suck... not only that liking someone that lives more than 1000 miles away also hard on someone, along with trying to save money for a trip to see them, its hard especially when it summer. but i am trying my best. i just need someone rite now and they cant be, not having a dad to cry to not havin him here to spoil me. its been 12 years. maybe i need to stop overanilizing things and get on with my life. i think that its time for bed
good nite, call me if you must.
if i dont answer
im sleeping
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