When avoiding reality...do a survey
I haven't been on in a while and rather than write about how I contemplated suicide this morning I will do a survey instead. It's slight avoidance, but all I can handle at the moment.
1. What time did you get up this morning? 5 am
2. What was the last thing you ate? Nothing, but I did have coffee, water, 3 xanax, and a strong drink...yes, at 8am
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? 4 christmases
4. What is your favorite TV show? Criminal Minds, Weeds, Desperate House wives, the office
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? coffee and water
6. What is your middle name? Aileem
7. What food do you dislike? tapioka
8. What is your favorite CD? KT Tungstall's older one, bijoke..um, all, and anything Stevie Wonder
9. What kind of car do you drive? Alero
10. Favorite sandwich? Ham and Roast Beef
11. Favorite item of clothing? Currently, my new black knee high boots
12. What characteristic don't you like? Ignorance and unwillingness to becomes less ignorant
13 If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? All over Europe
14. Where would you retire to? Arizona, Florida, but most preferably, a quite Greek isle with no cars and only donkeys and carts
15. What was your most recent memorable birthday? Last year we hiked and it was fun. I really wanted to go to Higgins Lake...like I have for many years now, but I was denied that small request...as I'm learning most of what little I want I do not get.
16. What are you going to do when you finish this? sober up and clean the house spotless because Michael yelled at the top of hislungs about how I took the day off yesterday and his parents stopped over unexpectedly and the place was a mess. although I ran like crazy all day to get laundry done, othe chores, balance the budget, pay bills, and fulfill his request that I go shopping and get him a decent shirt for the company party. He told me to get my hair done too because it was neglected, which I did. I got 4 shirts for him to choose from and he refused to try them on and told me to take the tags off and iron them all. When he finally tried them on...when his parents arrived to get us 20 fucking minutes early the next size did not fit...although this was the size he requested. It was all my fault. I got screamed at for about 30 minutes and wanted to kill myself. I still wouldn't mind it. I'm not pregnant again. I've got to schedule a painful proceedure for the next couple days and I've got to take another round of fertility meds starting tomorrow. That's what I'll be doing after this. I WISH I HAD SOME WEED! I HAVE NO ACCESS ANYMORE!
17. Furthest place you are sending this? No clue
18. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds
19. When is your birthday? July11
20. What is your shoe size? 10
21. Pets? one cat, one dog
22. Any new and exciting news? I have a nice new hairct with pretty highlights and low lights.
23. What did you want to be when you were little? A world traveler, a lawyer, a doctor, a respected professional, a beautiful woman, and I wanted to live in Europe.
24. How are you today? Hahaha. shittiest I've been in a while. From about Saturday till now it's been a tough tough week
25. What is your favorite flower? Strong scented ones like hyithcents, lillies, roses, etc.
26. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? I have no good answer for this right now. Maybe when I get to see Trisha. I think I will cry. It will be so nice to see my old sister.
27. What are you listening to right now? The dog licking and the heater running.
28. Favorite food? Mexican and cheese
29. Do you wish on stars? no
30. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? purple
31. How is the weather right now? cold
32. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Tyler, my brother
33. Favorite soft drink? diet coke
34. Favorite restaurant? El Azteco
35. Hair color? Blonde
36. What was your favorite toy as a child? Happy Apple
38. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate of course
39. Coffee or tea? coffee
40. Do you want your friends to email you back? I don't care
41. When was the last time you cried? Anout a half hour ago
42. What is under your bed? three under the bed totes
43. What did you do last night? ran around ironing like crazy, got dressed fast, went to the Lansing country club for a cocktail party and dinner, go a "wives" gift and rode home with the inlaws.
44. What are you afraid of? mortality. but today I was pretty sure I wanted to go to God.
45. Salty or sweet? salty
46. How many keys on your key ring? seven
47. Years at current job? I have 3 years and 7 months
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1. What time did you get up this morning? 5 am
2. What was the last thing you ate? Nothing, but I did have coffee, water, 3 xanax, and a strong drink...yes, at 8am
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? 4 christmases
4. What is your favorite TV show? Criminal Minds, Weeds, Desperate House wives, the office
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? coffee and water
6. What is your middle name? Aileem
7. What food do you dislike? tapioka
8. What is your favorite CD? KT Tungstall's older one, bijoke..um, all, and anything Stevie Wonder
9. What kind of car do you drive? Alero
10. Favorite sandwich? Ham and Roast Beef
11. Favorite item of clothing? Currently, my new black knee high boots
12. What characteristic don't you like? Ignorance and unwillingness to becomes less ignorant
13 If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? All over Europe
14. Where would you retire to? Arizona, Florida, but most preferably, a quite Greek isle with no cars and only donkeys and carts
15. What was your most recent memorable birthday? Last year we hiked and it was fun. I really wanted to go to Higgins Lake...like I have for many years now, but I was denied that small request...as I'm learning most of what little I want I do not get.
16. What are you going to do when you finish this? sober up and clean the house spotless because Michael yelled at the top of hislungs about how I took the day off yesterday and his parents stopped over unexpectedly and the place was a mess. although I ran like crazy all day to get laundry done, othe chores, balance the budget, pay bills, and fulfill his request that I go shopping and get him a decent shirt for the company party. He told me to get my hair done too because it was neglected, which I did. I got 4 shirts for him to choose from and he refused to try them on and told me to take the tags off and iron them all. When he finally tried them on...when his parents arrived to get us 20 fucking minutes early the next size did not fit...although this was the size he requested. It was all my fault. I got screamed at for about 30 minutes and wanted to kill myself. I still wouldn't mind it. I'm not pregnant again. I've got to schedule a painful proceedure for the next couple days and I've got to take another round of fertility meds starting tomorrow. That's what I'll be doing after this. I WISH I HAD SOME WEED! I HAVE NO ACCESS ANYMORE!
17. Furthest place you are sending this? No clue
18. Diamonds or pearls? diamonds
19. When is your birthday? July11
20. What is your shoe size? 10
21. Pets? one cat, one dog
22. Any new and exciting news? I have a nice new hairct with pretty highlights and low lights.
23. What did you want to be when you were little? A world traveler, a lawyer, a doctor, a respected professional, a beautiful woman, and I wanted to live in Europe.
24. How are you today? Hahaha. shittiest I've been in a while. From about Saturday till now it's been a tough tough week
25. What is your favorite flower? Strong scented ones like hyithcents, lillies, roses, etc.
26. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? I have no good answer for this right now. Maybe when I get to see Trisha. I think I will cry. It will be so nice to see my old sister.
27. What are you listening to right now? The dog licking and the heater running.
28. Favorite food? Mexican and cheese
29. Do you wish on stars? no
30. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? purple
31. How is the weather right now? cold
32. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Tyler, my brother
33. Favorite soft drink? diet coke
34. Favorite restaurant? El Azteco
35. Hair color? Blonde
36. What was your favorite toy as a child? Happy Apple
38. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate of course
39. Coffee or tea? coffee
40. Do you want your friends to email you back? I don't care
41. When was the last time you cried? Anout a half hour ago
42. What is under your bed? three under the bed totes
43. What did you do last night? ran around ironing like crazy, got dressed fast, went to the Lansing country club for a cocktail party and dinner, go a "wives" gift and rode home with the inlaws.
44. What are you afraid of? mortality. but today I was pretty sure I wanted to go to God.
45. Salty or sweet? salty
46. How many keys on your key ring? seven
47. Years at current job? I have 3 years and 7 months
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