Good and bad
So, the nurse from the obgyn called today to schedule a consultation because my blood work came back and aparently I am not ovulating during my cycle. Fabulous. Onward we go. I have this terrible premonition that I won't be able to have babies. I'm scared because I think I might lose it if that happens. It's not like we are trying too hard, but if you can't get knocked up anyway, then I guess it makes no difference.
My sister in law posted pictures of her baby bump today.
So, I keep flashing back to the last time I went to the Cleveland Clinic in 2004 and Dr. Lavery (who did the surgery that removed my entire large intestine) told me that I might have trouble concieving because of scar tissue. Aparently, they have to take out all your other guts that are on top of the large intestine and set them on a tray. I guess this can cause the scar tissue. I pray that this hasn't caused a major problem.
I want to have a baby so bad and although I've been trying to find reasons to not care and be happy with life as it is...this recent development really brings me true feelings to light. I can't deny it.
So, I think that's why I said fuck it and bought a canoe today.
And tomorrow I'll go into the OB and get my consult and we'll see.....................
BTW, Erin, I'm glad Hemmingway sounds like he'll be ok.
My sister in law posted pictures of her baby bump today.
So, I keep flashing back to the last time I went to the Cleveland Clinic in 2004 and Dr. Lavery (who did the surgery that removed my entire large intestine) told me that I might have trouble concieving because of scar tissue. Aparently, they have to take out all your other guts that are on top of the large intestine and set them on a tray. I guess this can cause the scar tissue. I pray that this hasn't caused a major problem.
I want to have a baby so bad and although I've been trying to find reasons to not care and be happy with life as it is...this recent development really brings me true feelings to light. I can't deny it.
So, I think that's why I said fuck it and bought a canoe today.
And tomorrow I'll go into the OB and get my consult and we'll see.....................
BTW, Erin, I'm glad Hemmingway sounds like he'll be ok.