I'm gonna have to whore myself for tuition
Cost of one academic year at Ball State if I had an assistantship and tuition waiver:
$1,612
Cost on one academic year at Ball State if I dont get either:
$15,528
There are no assistantships for fall in the psych department and I spent all morning calling 16 different departments directly to see if they had any available. 10 are either have nothing available or have the positions filled. 5 I left messages for because no actual human being picked up the phone. One actually allowed me to put in an application, but they arent sure if there is anything available for the fall.
FUCK.
What makes it worse is knowing that I was next in line for a doctoral position. If just one of the BAs they asked had decided to go somewhere else I would be in the doctoral program and only have to worry about coming up with a couple grand. I really dont know what to do at this point. Do I sell my soul to the devil and the government and immerse myself in debt by taking out extensive loans? Do I not go to school this year, redo all my grad school applications and hope I get accepted some where else with a better offer? If I don't go to school this semester what the fuck am I going to do in Gainesville for the next year? This job ends in a few months. I dont have a psych related job on the horizon. All I want to do is go to school and I just don't know if thats going to happen.
$1,612
Cost on one academic year at Ball State if I dont get either:
$15,528
There are no assistantships for fall in the psych department and I spent all morning calling 16 different departments directly to see if they had any available. 10 are either have nothing available or have the positions filled. 5 I left messages for because no actual human being picked up the phone. One actually allowed me to put in an application, but they arent sure if there is anything available for the fall.
FUCK.
What makes it worse is knowing that I was next in line for a doctoral position. If just one of the BAs they asked had decided to go somewhere else I would be in the doctoral program and only have to worry about coming up with a couple grand. I really dont know what to do at this point. Do I sell my soul to the devil and the government and immerse myself in debt by taking out extensive loans? Do I not go to school this year, redo all my grad school applications and hope I get accepted some where else with a better offer? If I don't go to school this semester what the fuck am I going to do in Gainesville for the next year? This job ends in a few months. I dont have a psych related job on the horizon. All I want to do is go to school and I just don't know if thats going to happen.