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so... im letting go.
i am realizing that i can't hold on to everything. most specifically i have learned what is important in my life, and who i can live without. i have spent so much time saying "i wanna go home" but you know what i realize? that even when i go home, its not the same. everyone has moved on. my friends in college have thier own friends, and my friends that work have friends with thier co-workers, and my friends that are about to graduate still have to learn what i have. and its that no matter what, the only thing that i can truly obtain by going home is to be closer with my family. it doesnt bother me that person 1 hasnt come up to visit me even tho she promised she would, bc she has a car at her school. and it doesnt bother me that person 2 hasnt called me or emailed me back in like two weeks. i realize that i have to go for the opprotunities that i want to take in life, and just indulge in the people i meet along the way. spending the summer in nj is not going to be bad, bc i wont be able to spend the summer catching up with my friends from high school. i am going to be in new jersey and take advantage of all my opprotunities. my life is going places. i have learned so much about myself this year, and i know who i am, who i want eo be, and and what is most important to me. its my family, my faith, my dreams, and the people i love. this summer is gonna be amazing, and im going to go to new york, and philly, and the beach, and possibly even europe for a week for free with my cousins! (thats right... milan bitches!) but im gonna save up, and when i come home, i will spend the time with only those who really care about me. and then i am going to come back to scranton next year (??) and continue on with the next chapter in my life. it took a while to realize that moving on meant leaving behind things and people too, but suddenly that all doesnt even seem to matter as much. im out.
i am realizing that i can't hold on to everything. most specifically i have learned what is important in my life, and who i can live without. i have spent so much time saying "i wanna go home" but you know what i realize? that even when i go home, its not the same. everyone has moved on. my friends in college have thier own friends, and my friends that work have friends with thier co-workers, and my friends that are about to graduate still have to learn what i have. and its that no matter what, the only thing that i can truly obtain by going home is to be closer with my family. it doesnt bother me that person 1 hasnt come up to visit me even tho she promised she would, bc she has a car at her school. and it doesnt bother me that person 2 hasnt called me or emailed me back in like two weeks. i realize that i have to go for the opprotunities that i want to take in life, and just indulge in the people i meet along the way. spending the summer in nj is not going to be bad, bc i wont be able to spend the summer catching up with my friends from high school. i am going to be in new jersey and take advantage of all my opprotunities. my life is going places. i have learned so much about myself this year, and i know who i am, who i want eo be, and and what is most important to me. its my family, my faith, my dreams, and the people i love. this summer is gonna be amazing, and im going to go to new york, and philly, and the beach, and possibly even europe for a week for free with my cousins! (thats right... milan bitches!) but im gonna save up, and when i come home, i will spend the time with only those who really care about me. and then i am going to come back to scranton next year (??) and continue on with the next chapter in my life. it took a while to realize that moving on meant leaving behind things and people too, but suddenly that all doesnt even seem to matter as much. im out.