this too shall pass

[jennyluann]

Who knew my non-malicious intentions would turn me into such a monster? Even my best qualities have lost their innocence. Remember who you are? Bullshit. It doesn't matter who I really am. It's how the circumstances define me, and how everyone sees me. Or sees straight through me to some other version of me. I'm ready to be Jenny again, not the

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[jennyluann]

You're right about monsters. And if I had attempted to define another person's true character through my private judgments of one situation the way this comment, deliberately and publicly, implies that I as a whole am by definition a monster....you’d be right to consider my actions monstrous and I would understand and sympathize with you for arguing so in a comment on my livejournal.

Likewise, I'll consider this comment monstrous, but I don't believe that the person who wrote it is truly a monster. His/her actions are a result of his/her hurt and anger, understandable emotions given the circumstances. At some time or another, all humans react irrationally (although sincerely) based on our emotions. In fact, I have done so recently, and I am incredibly sorry for the undue harm that my actions have caused...I understand that the hurt is no less just because it was caused unintentionally.

I'll forgive the person who made this comment for being just as human as I am...for reacting emotionally to a difficult situation. Maybe I'm wrong to expect the same forgiveness in return, but I’m certainly reasonable to expect the absence of such confrontational hostility.

[jennyluann]

I do not need or want your forgiveness, but I do need you to know that I believe you are a beautiful, talented, and intelligent person. Because of this belief, I hope with all of my heart that you would not and did not hurt another person intentionally. I hope this because I have to. In addition, I apologize for the confrontational hostility you felt after reading my message. Although I in no way wish to directly compare your actions or words to my comment on your live-journal, I hope that this has taught both of us to be much more thoughtful about the power and ramifications of our words. I hope you know truly how painful words can be regardless of the intention. Again please know, I believe in you, even though it may take me a while to forgive you.

[jennyluann]

Written with grace and humility. Thank you.

I understand.