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it's 12:54 on a friday. a good night overall. it would have been better had lindsey enjoyed it...then i could have enjoyed it completly...but i know she will be allright. i know she is just in a really bad place right now and it just takes a little while to get out of it.
i can't stop thinking about how everything seems to be changing around me. we are moving in a year...again. to who knows where this time...but out of hopkinton, away from my nursery and all my loves. but my dad will finally be able to be happy...so i guess that is what's important. but i feel as though i have just settled into this house. and now there will be a new place. and i will have to call it home. i need to stop being so selfish and accept the fact that there are just bigger things going on around me. easier said than done.
i never thought i would say this...i really can't believe this thought is even coming to my mind now...but it is almost as though colby is my home now. and the stoughtons. i think it is safe to say that it is these are the only constant things in my life. i have met, and continue to meet people who i feel safe with. sure, there are those who have permanently ruined my trust, but those types of people are everywhere. it's best to think of those who would walk all the way across campus late at night to watch for you to pull your car into K lot and walk you back to your dorm room because they know how scared you would be walking alone. i do have people like this in my life. and for that i am lucky.
i can't stop thinking about how everything seems to be changing around me. we are moving in a year...again. to who knows where this time...but out of hopkinton, away from my nursery and all my loves. but my dad will finally be able to be happy...so i guess that is what's important. but i feel as though i have just settled into this house. and now there will be a new place. and i will have to call it home. i need to stop being so selfish and accept the fact that there are just bigger things going on around me. easier said than done.
i never thought i would say this...i really can't believe this thought is even coming to my mind now...but it is almost as though colby is my home now. and the stoughtons. i think it is safe to say that it is these are the only constant things in my life. i have met, and continue to meet people who i feel safe with. sure, there are those who have permanently ruined my trust, but those types of people are everywhere. it's best to think of those who would walk all the way across campus late at night to watch for you to pull your car into K lot and walk you back to your dorm room because they know how scared you would be walking alone. i do have people like this in my life. and for that i am lucky.