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i was hoping today would be better...i'ts mother's day, we have company coming over. but it's just not. my mother came into my room this morning crying with a bunch of pictures of sam. there is one of sam and my mom and he is leaned over to her giving her a kiss. there is also some of him smiling and one with his mouth so wide open it looks like him and my mom are having a good laugh together. i hate this. we all just walk around this house crying. it's like a dark cloud over the house. it just feels so empty and incomplete. i think putting on a happy face for the family when they come over will be even worse. i just need to stop complaining...i am just making things harder for myself...but i just dont know what else to do.