Update!
Ok.... So...an update....I met a boy... Amy approves of him....and everyone else needs to meet him...He is very nice....and sweet...Italian....Non-controlling...has friends wich means we won't be joined at the hip which is much needed... will let me see all of you which means alot to me...he's wicked tall 6'3ish...so it makes me look wicked small....my mom hasn't met him yet... we're giving this all time....he's a hopless romantic....and i can actually work and not feel guilty about it...
That brings me to the next subject.. i started watching Tessa last Friday...I love working with her she's matured so much in the past year....She's the one that influenced me decision on going into special Edu. She's reading,writing and doing math...she's also going into 4th grade next year..i feel so old lol....I had my trudeau banquet last friday night.. that was fun....it was at West Valley inn... it was like a wedding ceremony...but it was mainle an awards ceremony for special olympics.....
I've been doing alot of thinking lately... and i know this may sound pathetic... but i've been thinking about my past alot lately... I told amy this that everytime i like a guy i see Brad and i'm afraid to start something serious...and well last night i was reading poems i would write to myself in the middle of the night when i had no one to go to and didn't want anyone to know what was going on with that...and in reality it's amazing how i turned myself around...the past 9 months that i have been single.. i learned who i am and what i like to do...it's like i can be myself now and not have to worry about someone controlling my every move... I have felt like that for awhile i don't know why but it just seems like the hurting phase is past me...i want to burn the letters brad sent me in bootcamp i just want to keep one and i want to burn a majority of the pictures of us together...i would say junior prom ones but i have none of just me just him and it ruins the picture.. unless i cut his head out and put smiley faces over him...I need to just burn all of it...but there's a slight problem i don't know where to do it...and i think that everyone that saw what was going on would need to be there to see that chapter of my life close forever.....
I just want to thank all of you that stood by me...through the last 5 years with all the drama...i really hope it's finished with and that this new relationship i'm in will be a good one...i know that there will be some issues but i really hope they aren't as strenious as the ones that i've had in the past with past relationships...
Mom and stephen are back together.. i love it... i hope they beomce engaged soon....i missed him so much....
I have vacation the frist week of July and i'm going to enjoy every second of it...
ok i'm finished updating....Beach friday everyone is invited.... I LOVE YOU ALL with ALL OF MY HEART!
That brings me to the next subject.. i started watching Tessa last Friday...I love working with her she's matured so much in the past year....She's the one that influenced me decision on going into special Edu. She's reading,writing and doing math...she's also going into 4th grade next year..i feel so old lol....I had my trudeau banquet last friday night.. that was fun....it was at West Valley inn... it was like a wedding ceremony...but it was mainle an awards ceremony for special olympics.....
I've been doing alot of thinking lately... and i know this may sound pathetic... but i've been thinking about my past alot lately... I told amy this that everytime i like a guy i see Brad and i'm afraid to start something serious...and well last night i was reading poems i would write to myself in the middle of the night when i had no one to go to and didn't want anyone to know what was going on with that...and in reality it's amazing how i turned myself around...the past 9 months that i have been single.. i learned who i am and what i like to do...it's like i can be myself now and not have to worry about someone controlling my every move... I have felt like that for awhile i don't know why but it just seems like the hurting phase is past me...i want to burn the letters brad sent me in bootcamp i just want to keep one and i want to burn a majority of the pictures of us together...i would say junior prom ones but i have none of just me just him and it ruins the picture.. unless i cut his head out and put smiley faces over him...I need to just burn all of it...but there's a slight problem i don't know where to do it...and i think that everyone that saw what was going on would need to be there to see that chapter of my life close forever.....
I just want to thank all of you that stood by me...through the last 5 years with all the drama...i really hope it's finished with and that this new relationship i'm in will be a good one...i know that there will be some issues but i really hope they aren't as strenious as the ones that i've had in the past with past relationships...
Mom and stephen are back together.. i love it... i hope they beomce engaged soon....i missed him so much....
I have vacation the frist week of July and i'm going to enjoy every second of it...
ok i'm finished updating....Beach friday everyone is invited.... I LOVE YOU ALL with ALL OF MY HEART!