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things between me and greg have felt like such a yo-yo, and it's all coming from me. somedays i think i can handle being friends and that everything is going to be fine, and than other days all i can think about is how i am never going to be able to live without him. i'm been talking to some people about it, and they told me the best thing to do is let go. greg wants to be friends, but it is not going to be possible. i'm never going to get over him or meet anyone new if i am with him all the time. so last night i finally got up the courage to tell him that i can't be friends with him now.ni explained myself calmly and he seemed to take it well. he said he cares about me enough to respect my wishes as long as we can be friends again one day, which might be possible. it is going to be soo hard to not call him, or talk to him on aim, or invite him over for dinner. it's going to hurt for awhile, but i know this is going to be for the best in the long run. it will be better to get all the hurt out of the way now, than to keep hanging out with him and having the false hope that we will get back together. i am soo happy when i am with him and it's the only time i forget all the hurt, but if i just keep doing this to myself it is going to hurt twice as bad when he finds someone new. hopefully everything is going turn out o.k. in the end. i just have to look on the brightside of this whole situation, someday i am going to find someone new and fall in love all over again, which has to be one of the funnest things ever. so, today is the first day in my new life, wish me luck!