fuck fuck fuck
alright so im having a shitty day, nothings going right for me..like nothing at all. I wanna rip my hair out...but I figure that if I write in this thing then I can get some of my frustrations out..ya know? Its this feeling when you dont know whether to cry..or punch something/someone...whatever it is I dont like it. Maddi knows what im talking about because she used to always help me out when I got like this..and once again shes trying to help me out tonight and I love her for it. okay so fuck fuck fuck..bad days suck..
my mom let me go to the mall today with laura, she actually let me take the vehicle and everything..i was shocked! i bought smoe new stuff..shirts and shit, ive gotta go back to school shopping *throws up* im not looking forward to it...
••By the way...sean is a hottie,''very cute, adorable with a sexy body, ready to please''if you think you can handle him then add him to msn (ship_set_sail@hotmail.com)••
okay well back to my bad day..tim, dar, timmy & brent showed up like half an hour ago..they were going to pick steph up from work..then laura..and it depressed me cause it made me wanna go back to tims but I already told him I couldnt! FUCK!
and my sisters being a bitch..she thinks she owns the damn vehicle..so im not allowed to go out anywhere with it:( Then theres this guy who I like alot..who has barely talked to me lately...its like hes too busy for me now or somethin..or maybe theres another chick? idunno..whatever guys suck, oh well..tomorrow i can get drunk..which is really today:D casuse its MADDIS BIRTHDAY! so the big parties at katies house for her, i wanna bring someone but dont know who to bring..which blows..big chunks. Im prolly gunna get drunk and do somethin stupid..fool around with someone i shouldnt..jus cause im in that kinda mood..I may need to limit myself to the amount of alcohol I consume tomorrow.
okay well so last night was fun though, went to the fair with Lor, ainz, nick, steph, greg, anthony, hailey, darlene, caitlin, steph.m, katie and we saw amanda and a few other people there too. most of us spent the night at lauras, greg and I decided we wanted timmy hoes at like 1:30am so we took the freakin scary trail behind lors house...omg i almost cried..we heard screaching noses..and sounds like there was someone in the woods..and fuckin greg ran and left me there! nice guy eh? aw well..we stayed at timmy hoes for like an hour..ate a bagel and ice cap and then scared the shit outta ourselves again by going back into the woods. we stayed up till like 6am talking about nothing..and chattin on the net an stuff..it was crazy..then i had to get up an get my hair dyed...which i love by the way. okay thats it..till I think of more to write.
my mom let me go to the mall today with laura, she actually let me take the vehicle and everything..i was shocked! i bought smoe new stuff..shirts and shit, ive gotta go back to school shopping *throws up* im not looking forward to it...
••By the way...sean is a hottie,''very cute, adorable with a sexy body, ready to please''if you think you can handle him then add him to msn (ship_set_sail@hotmail.com)••
okay well back to my bad day..tim, dar, timmy & brent showed up like half an hour ago..they were going to pick steph up from work..then laura..and it depressed me cause it made me wanna go back to tims but I already told him I couldnt! FUCK!
and my sisters being a bitch..she thinks she owns the damn vehicle..so im not allowed to go out anywhere with it:( Then theres this guy who I like alot..who has barely talked to me lately...its like hes too busy for me now or somethin..or maybe theres another chick? idunno..whatever guys suck, oh well..tomorrow i can get drunk..which is really today:D casuse its MADDIS BIRTHDAY! so the big parties at katies house for her, i wanna bring someone but dont know who to bring..which blows..big chunks. Im prolly gunna get drunk and do somethin stupid..fool around with someone i shouldnt..jus cause im in that kinda mood..I may need to limit myself to the amount of alcohol I consume tomorrow.
okay well so last night was fun though, went to the fair with Lor, ainz, nick, steph, greg, anthony, hailey, darlene, caitlin, steph.m, katie and we saw amanda and a few other people there too. most of us spent the night at lauras, greg and I decided we wanted timmy hoes at like 1:30am so we took the freakin scary trail behind lors house...omg i almost cried..we heard screaching noses..and sounds like there was someone in the woods..and fuckin greg ran and left me there! nice guy eh? aw well..we stayed at timmy hoes for like an hour..ate a bagel and ice cap and then scared the shit outta ourselves again by going back into the woods. we stayed up till like 6am talking about nothing..and chattin on the net an stuff..it was crazy..then i had to get up an get my hair dyed...which i love by the way. okay thats it..till I think of more to write.