ohmygawd!
it's been forever and a day since i've even thought to write in this thing. myspace has invaded the world and everyone in it. lots of things have happened since i last updated, it will be hard to find a place to start. first of all, i am 9 months pregnant right now. tony is the father. it has been a long hard road so far but we are making it through. we have been in a lot of fights and spots where we were unsure of what was going to happen. there has also been circumstances that i didn't think i could get through with him and was ready to pack up and leave. but here i am, having his baby boy and trying to pull through everyday and stay strong. while i am a stay at home mom still, he is an iron worker for the local union. he makes pretty good money but we struggle with all the bills with him being the only worker. someday i might go back to work when the baby gets older. for now, i am going to breastfeed so i choose to stay home with him. isabelle turned 7 in may and she is so big!! she lives in sherman with her dad which is about an hr away from me. i see her a lot more than i used to and she is very excited about the baby coming. my mom didn't want to tell her about the pregnancy til i was about 8 months because she didn't want her to be upset and jealous. it was very hard for me to keep my cool and not tell her sooner but i did it. i wish i would've just told her sooner because she would've been excited the whole time. she wants me to name him jake. i have no final name picked out for him just yet though. i need to hurry. the dr said i could go into labor anyime now so i'm just playing the waiting game. there are many things i am worried about of course, it has been 7 years after all! and obviously i've never had a baby boy so this will be a learning experience for me big time!!! i will be alone at home with him too and that's alittle scary at times. anyways, i am ready for whatever gets thrown at me and hope all goes well for us! i will update soon when the baby is born...