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So I didnt realize how much I miss Dawson until I read his recent post. When I went back to Churchill for a visit it just felt like something was missing and now I know why..because Dawson wasnt there..I always knew he had an impact on me but I feel ashamed that I didnt realize how big it actually was and how empty my life has been and is with out him. He is truely an amazing person and anyone who thinks otherwise should be drug out in the street and shot. Hmm what else is going on...I never thought I would see the day were I was happy about a 79. Yep thats right...first history mid-term and I made a 79. Its not bad at all considering this was an all essay test. My Mom was very excited about it..but when I told my Dad you could just hear his heart drop...all I could say was I tried. He said that it was ok and that I should just try harder next time..The feeling that I let him down was so over whelming that all I could do was cry. Then came home and slept for about 4 hours. Im not really sure what Im gonna do about it. I guess study harder?? The only thing is its very hard to get into something your not passionate about anymore..aka I changed my major to Psychology with a minor in criminal justice so I can work for the FBI..
Its funny cause now my teachers seem like annoying little kids that jump up and down and say "listen to me!! Im important!!" and I just want be like here is a lolly pop..go sit down and leave me alone...maybe this is why I cant be a teacher haha.
Quote of the day:
Anything worth having is worth going through obsticals to get...
Hopefully I can remember that..
now something that I stole haha :)
10 years ago I was: 8 years old and in 3rd grade?? I realize now what I was actually going through and that the world is so much better through the eyes of a child...they cant see the hidden oppression forced on them..only love
5 years ago I was: 13 and an 8th grader...waiting to go to high school..trying to get into colorguard..and not knowing what exactly I was about to get into..
1 year ago I was: 17 and trying to figure out where I was going..why things were falling apart..and regreting alot of past mistakes instead of trying to learn from them.
Yesterday I was: Sleeping and worrying about homework
5 snacks I enjoy: Jello with pineapple in it, bananas with peanut butter, cliff bars, Peanut butter crackers, and green beans.
5 songs I know all the words to: Down - 311, Im not that girl - wicked, Best of me - starting line, Scientist - coldplay, and Orinoco flow - enya
5 things I would do with 100 million dollars: Build a house, Bring Dawson home, Open a book store/coffee shop, Travel to Italy, and try to help little kids as much as possible
5 places I would run away to: Australia, Italy, San Antonio (haha), New York, anywhere with friends.
5 things I would never wear: Egg-plant over-alls, High water grandma jeans, something that was see through enough to see my boobs, pants without a butt, stripper clothes.
5 favorite TV shows: Fosters home for imaginary friends, Laguna Beach, the O.C, CSI, Life on the Rock.
5 bad habits: Procrastinating, over-analyzing, holding on, regretting, taking things personally.
5 biggest joys: Looking at stars, Ice cream, Going to the park with Dawson, Finding a guy that Im not afraid of, Finishing my homework.
5 favorite toys: My Ipod, coloring books, my cell phone, Barbies, sidewalk chalk
The end.
Its funny cause now my teachers seem like annoying little kids that jump up and down and say "listen to me!! Im important!!" and I just want be like here is a lolly pop..go sit down and leave me alone...maybe this is why I cant be a teacher haha.
Quote of the day:
Anything worth having is worth going through obsticals to get...
Hopefully I can remember that..
now something that I stole haha :)
10 years ago I was: 8 years old and in 3rd grade?? I realize now what I was actually going through and that the world is so much better through the eyes of a child...they cant see the hidden oppression forced on them..only love
5 years ago I was: 13 and an 8th grader...waiting to go to high school..trying to get into colorguard..and not knowing what exactly I was about to get into..
1 year ago I was: 17 and trying to figure out where I was going..why things were falling apart..and regreting alot of past mistakes instead of trying to learn from them.
Yesterday I was: Sleeping and worrying about homework
5 snacks I enjoy: Jello with pineapple in it, bananas with peanut butter, cliff bars, Peanut butter crackers, and green beans.
5 songs I know all the words to: Down - 311, Im not that girl - wicked, Best of me - starting line, Scientist - coldplay, and Orinoco flow - enya
5 things I would do with 100 million dollars: Build a house, Bring Dawson home, Open a book store/coffee shop, Travel to Italy, and try to help little kids as much as possible
5 places I would run away to: Australia, Italy, San Antonio (haha), New York, anywhere with friends.
5 things I would never wear: Egg-plant over-alls, High water grandma jeans, something that was see through enough to see my boobs, pants without a butt, stripper clothes.
5 favorite TV shows: Fosters home for imaginary friends, Laguna Beach, the O.C, CSI, Life on the Rock.
5 bad habits: Procrastinating, over-analyzing, holding on, regretting, taking things personally.
5 biggest joys: Looking at stars, Ice cream, Going to the park with Dawson, Finding a guy that Im not afraid of, Finishing my homework.
5 favorite toys: My Ipod, coloring books, my cell phone, Barbies, sidewalk chalk
The end.