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I feel like I'm getting agoraphobia. I have spent so much time alone lately that I actually get anxious about going outside. I'm so tired of this crazy infertility rollercoaster. I'm not just feeling sorry for myself, the entire process sucks! I'm sure anyone who has done it would agree.
I feel lonely and isolated. I'm sure that this is my own fault. I just got into such a funk with the lay-off and then with starting the treatments. I thought I was doing folks a favor by not doing too many social things. After all who wants to hang out with the moody girl? Now though, I find myself without social interaction for the most part and it feels terrible.
I think I just miss all my old friends. I've tried making new friends but it just isn't the same. I think the bonding I did in my twenties is somehow deeper than anything I can do in my thirties. I think that part of the reason the infertility stuff is so hard to handle is that I am doing it mostly alone. I miss the social support I used to have. I know I'm really lucky to have Cam and Steen. I have game coming up so that will make things better.
j~
I feel lonely and isolated. I'm sure that this is my own fault. I just got into such a funk with the lay-off and then with starting the treatments. I thought I was doing folks a favor by not doing too many social things. After all who wants to hang out with the moody girl? Now though, I find myself without social interaction for the most part and it feels terrible.
I think I just miss all my old friends. I've tried making new friends but it just isn't the same. I think the bonding I did in my twenties is somehow deeper than anything I can do in my thirties. I think that part of the reason the infertility stuff is so hard to handle is that I am doing it mostly alone. I miss the social support I used to have. I know I'm really lucky to have Cam and Steen. I have game coming up so that will make things better.
j~