***Well Just when I think my life is turned around****
Ok well Im gonna start by explaining the subject lol***
Ok not alot of ppl know this but trista and nick used to talk before I started datin in fact they were talking when me and him started datin*** Anyways the other nite one of my ex's told me he liked her well so I aint mad Im sorta hurt but anyways...I really love him and I always will*** Ok so last nite I was reading some of my old entries in this journal and IT made me sad cause I never really ever thought that *me and Nick* Would ever end and when it did it hurt like heck and I still hurt cause of it anyways there was a bunch of songs we used to listen together well I had a friend burn them for me and I didnt think that I would cry cause I was doing so well anyways**** Well I was playin I miss my friend I just looked up and out of nowhere a tear ran down my cheek*** I hate it cause I want to be his friend and I do want to hang out with him but you that wont happen till like Im older and he is older....maybe if Im that lucky** So anyways I went to a wedding this afternoon and saw some of nick's friends I guess and all it was hard cause I used to talk to them while we was at his baseball games*** And im about to cry right now*** anyways we went to the reception at the John Fox Jr House** Well I get up there under the shed thing and the first song that played was mine and Nick's song and I know some of yall hate readin my journal anymore but I dont care i hurt so bad I am seriously thinking bout just not datin anymore and locking myself in a room cause it hurts so bad cause I loved him and still do I miss him so much not as a boyfriend but as my best friend*** Ok so they finished the song I almost broke down cause I dont usually hear that song but oh well*** Ok now to what I want to say I know that God has someone for me and that everyone says Jenny youre a pretty girl you can do better than nick.......the truth is I dont feel pretty I FEEL like I have gained alot of weight and I dont care what anyone says I DONT WANT BETTER THAN NICK*(**** I read his journal today it hurts yeah people who are reading this are probably sayin ur bringnin it on urself by readin his lj well guess what if you hold all the pain in ur gonna screw up and take it out on someone else just like I did with nick see me and mom was fighting and it honestly hurt me so I let the pain stay inside and when me and nick broke up and then fought that afternoon i got back from camp it just all came out*** Anyways Becca and waved at me and I tell u I couldnt even speak to her about it cause it hurts like Heck to even see someone from PV**except the friends I had before me and nick was ever *US* Well guys comments would be appreciated Love yall***
Jenny Leigh
Ok not alot of ppl know this but trista and nick used to talk before I started datin in fact they were talking when me and him started datin*** Anyways the other nite one of my ex's told me he liked her well so I aint mad Im sorta hurt but anyways...I really love him and I always will*** Ok so last nite I was reading some of my old entries in this journal and IT made me sad cause I never really ever thought that *me and Nick* Would ever end and when it did it hurt like heck and I still hurt cause of it anyways there was a bunch of songs we used to listen together well I had a friend burn them for me and I didnt think that I would cry cause I was doing so well anyways**** Well I was playin I miss my friend I just looked up and out of nowhere a tear ran down my cheek*** I hate it cause I want to be his friend and I do want to hang out with him but you that wont happen till like Im older and he is older....maybe if Im that lucky** So anyways I went to a wedding this afternoon and saw some of nick's friends I guess and all it was hard cause I used to talk to them while we was at his baseball games*** And im about to cry right now*** anyways we went to the reception at the John Fox Jr House** Well I get up there under the shed thing and the first song that played was mine and Nick's song and I know some of yall hate readin my journal anymore but I dont care i hurt so bad I am seriously thinking bout just not datin anymore and locking myself in a room cause it hurts so bad cause I loved him and still do I miss him so much not as a boyfriend but as my best friend*** Ok so they finished the song I almost broke down cause I dont usually hear that song but oh well*** Ok now to what I want to say I know that God has someone for me and that everyone says Jenny youre a pretty girl you can do better than nick.......the truth is I dont feel pretty I FEEL like I have gained alot of weight and I dont care what anyone says I DONT WANT BETTER THAN NICK*(**** I read his journal today it hurts yeah people who are reading this are probably sayin ur bringnin it on urself by readin his lj well guess what if you hold all the pain in ur gonna screw up and take it out on someone else just like I did with nick see me and mom was fighting and it honestly hurt me so I let the pain stay inside and when me and nick broke up and then fought that afternoon i got back from camp it just all came out*** Anyways Becca and waved at me and I tell u I couldnt even speak to her about it cause it hurts like Heck to even see someone from PV**except the friends I had before me and nick was ever *US* Well guys comments would be appreciated Love yall***
Jenny Leigh