What do I do next...
Well school's out.. yippee?? I don't know what to think anymore, I'm so drained; Physically and mentally. And I'm completely tired of it! I hate feeling this way. Yesterday was my dad's 50th birthday, I didn't want to call him but I felt guilty so I did. Why should I feel guilty though? He put himself in this situation, I didn't ask him to treat me and my mother the way he did. Ugh. I hate this. and then my mom is a whole other subject. I haven't talked to her in over a month I suppose. I'm doing a lot better without her, but it still hurts to know that I don't have that support. I have Stephie's mom who is pretty much mine too, but it's not the same as having your own. One to come home to and go shopping with. I absolutely hate this! But on to bigger and better things.. great news everyone!
Guess who just became a SENIOR! OH YEAH!! ME!!!! YAY! Only one more year, then I'm not quite sure where I'm off to after that. This summer is going to require a lot of thinking about my future. Next week I have to go take my SAT's then I may go up to Cocoa or stay here and go up the week after. I need to take time off of work, and just life in general.
I want to go see my little sis Taylor, I miss the hell out of her. I can't wait to see her. She's getting so big and I have to beat the guys away with a damn bat. LoL! Hmm... I want to see someone else but it's no use mentioning her name, I'll never get to see her, probably ever the way things are going. What does it take to make someone realize that whether they like it or not, I'm still here. You can move on with your life my dear, but remember, when shit when down I was there... even if I was 200 miles away I still called... did you? I still call to this day... do you? I didn't think so. So next time I get on the phone with you (Long Distance might I add) how about you don't tell me your on the other line with your boyfriend or your getting ready to leave.. shit you can leave at anytime and talk to your boyfriend whenever.. I haven't seen you in almost 4 years.. keep that in mind. THANKS
*Always Here*
Jenny*Lee
Guess who just became a SENIOR! OH YEAH!! ME!!!! YAY! Only one more year, then I'm not quite sure where I'm off to after that. This summer is going to require a lot of thinking about my future. Next week I have to go take my SAT's then I may go up to Cocoa or stay here and go up the week after. I need to take time off of work, and just life in general.
I want to go see my little sis Taylor, I miss the hell out of her. I can't wait to see her. She's getting so big and I have to beat the guys away with a damn bat. LoL! Hmm... I want to see someone else but it's no use mentioning her name, I'll never get to see her, probably ever the way things are going. What does it take to make someone realize that whether they like it or not, I'm still here. You can move on with your life my dear, but remember, when shit when down I was there... even if I was 200 miles away I still called... did you? I still call to this day... do you? I didn't think so. So next time I get on the phone with you (Long Distance might I add) how about you don't tell me your on the other line with your boyfriend or your getting ready to leave.. shit you can leave at anytime and talk to your boyfriend whenever.. I haven't seen you in almost 4 years.. keep that in mind. THANKS
*Always Here*
Jenny*Lee