Catch me when I fall...
I want to spill everything out onto paper and have someone know what it feels like. I talk to everyone but no one will ever understand. I want to explain that I'm so in love and that it kills me inside. I can't sleep at night and just swallow when I'm being forced to. I want to take it all back and pretend none of it happened. I wish we never had anything to do with each other. I wish I didn't know him. Things never work out for me like this and it's always my fault. I hate sitting here, blaming myself for not being good enough or letting him down somehow while he's so happy with everything and moved on already. I'm never going to be as strong as he is. Why are you so smart and so cute and so wonderful? Why did you date me, you're stupid. I told you never to date me..remember? And then you did and it was your call and all I want to do now is crawl into a hole in the floor and just go away. I can't show my face in front of you and I'm going to cry and I can't pretend that it doesn't hurt because it does. Everything I've done, I had to do to forget but you're still there. I miss you. I want you.
I think the thing that really gets me is the fact that I miss having someone there for me all the time. I loved being able to talk to him really late at night and always having someone to call. I loved being able to just hang out with him and really be myself. I wanted someone to care about him and when he whispered those words into phone the first time I wanted to give him a chance. I'm so stupid. I feel so stupid for falling in love and knowing it would end so badly.
And now you've stopped caring and being there for me and I've had to recover on my own. I can't imagine any of this. My throat closes up and I can't even utter your name anymore. This is one last time I'll remember. You've always been there for me and I was never there for you and I'm sorry. I'm always saying it'll be fine and I'm trying to convince myself but it's not. I'll be alone for now and surrounded by happy people. I wish that made me a happy person. I hate that I'm in love with you.
Will you just watch from afar?
Please catch me when I fall
Please catch me when I fall
I've always expected you to be there
So now that you're not
I have to put on my face
And pretend that I'm alone
Things like this always seem to make you sad
I love that you pretend as much as me
The times we laid next to each other that one summer
Has to mean nothing to you
Just like it means nothing to me
Everyone will watch as we tear ourselves out
Please catch me when I fall
They'll stand aside and let us battle it out
Please catch me when I fall
The sand dollar on the beach
The bracelets we shared
The times we spent
You'll just watch me from afar
Haven't we've done this enough already
Let's fall back and pretend again
Haven't we've done this enough already
Suck in our breaths and we'll reach
I think the thing that really gets me is the fact that I miss having someone there for me all the time. I loved being able to talk to him really late at night and always having someone to call. I loved being able to just hang out with him and really be myself. I wanted someone to care about him and when he whispered those words into phone the first time I wanted to give him a chance. I'm so stupid. I feel so stupid for falling in love and knowing it would end so badly.
And now you've stopped caring and being there for me and I've had to recover on my own. I can't imagine any of this. My throat closes up and I can't even utter your name anymore. This is one last time I'll remember. You've always been there for me and I was never there for you and I'm sorry. I'm always saying it'll be fine and I'm trying to convince myself but it's not. I'll be alone for now and surrounded by happy people. I wish that made me a happy person. I hate that I'm in love with you.
Will you just watch from afar?
Please catch me when I fall
Please catch me when I fall
I've always expected you to be there
So now that you're not
I have to put on my face
And pretend that I'm alone
Things like this always seem to make you sad
I love that you pretend as much as me
The times we laid next to each other that one summer
Has to mean nothing to you
Just like it means nothing to me
Everyone will watch as we tear ourselves out
Please catch me when I fall
They'll stand aside and let us battle it out
Please catch me when I fall
The sand dollar on the beach
The bracelets we shared
The times we spent
You'll just watch me from afar
Haven't we've done this enough already
Let's fall back and pretend again
Haven't we've done this enough already
Suck in our breaths and we'll reach