Perspective by Incongruity
It's been a while since something has taken up so much of my thoughts. I haven't had a day where I just stared off into space, thinking about all the different aspects of a certain situation, reminscing, and wondering how things came to be, and how they are to come. This moment was sparked by a dream, and in that dream, I felt so much emotion. It was in that dream that I wanted to do something about the situation. As soon as I awoke, the feeling was gone, but it was something my subconscious mind made me remember.
I dreamed about you, but I can't really recall it anymore. I just remember that you were cut off from my life forever, and I couldn't handle it. I wanted something, a way to understand what was going on with you, how you were, what you were doing. I couldn't imagine how it would be were you to be cut off from my life forever, regardless of the damage received. I had to explore every outlet, I had to ignore my pride, and no matter how much shame it brought, I just had to know. Is that how it's always going to be?
For the last year, I've been taking my life a day at a time. No worries, just get through. The weeks are flying by, and soon enough, the year will be done. It's time something bigger than selfish ol' me took the stage. But out here, I don't have much to think of other than myself. It's an excuse that I've allowed to take hold of my reasoning mind. I don't regret college, but I do. Where is this need to grow up so fast?
I dreamed about you, but I can't really recall it anymore. I just remember that you were cut off from my life forever, and I couldn't handle it. I wanted something, a way to understand what was going on with you, how you were, what you were doing. I couldn't imagine how it would be were you to be cut off from my life forever, regardless of the damage received. I had to explore every outlet, I had to ignore my pride, and no matter how much shame it brought, I just had to know. Is that how it's always going to be?
For the last year, I've been taking my life a day at a time. No worries, just get through. The weeks are flying by, and soon enough, the year will be done. It's time something bigger than selfish ol' me took the stage. But out here, I don't have much to think of other than myself. It's an excuse that I've allowed to take hold of my reasoning mind. I don't regret college, but I do. Where is this need to grow up so fast?