rarr.
I hate the fact that people act like they know, when they don't. Especially when they think they know about me, and my life. I'm so sick of people assuming that I'm so spoiled and I get everything I want. Granted I do get everything, but I get it for the simple reason of my dad is an idiot.
I've lived with my dad for the last 4 in a half years. If you asked him a simple question about me I could almost guarantee you he couldn't answer it correctly. My own dad doesn't even know me. He doesn't even act like a dad. He's an alcoholic, who constantly is hurting me, letting me down, embarrassing me or screwing up. So, instead of apologizing or talking it out with me he buys me things. I used to like it, in some cases I still do. But I want a dad too. My older brother is more of a dad to me, and my dad is more of a brother (a roommate sounds better!). I'm so sick of this life style. It's ridiculous. The worst part is, I try to tell people or talk to people about it and their response is always "Why, your dad is soo cool". NO, my dad isn't cool. My dad is a raging alcoholic. He is an out of control idiot after he drinks. NO, it isn't cool. It's embarrassing and frankly, I'm ashamed to have a dad like that. He's like a little boy. He doesn't understand that he's hurting me and other people. I can't even begin to count the number of times I've stayed up late to see if he makes it home, or how many nights I've cried myself to sleep because of his stupidity. I'm ready to move out.. I need to move out. I NEED OUT OF HERE!!