if a tree falls in a forest
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too much coffee
and i have this familiar feeling of anxiety when i try to send out resumes and cover letters
it's like when i used to have a paper due
i would just put it off and off and off
until the panic sets in
or in this case, until they ask for verification for my work contacts
and i am fucked
o man o man
why can't i just fucking do this
um. i am in panera bread on market street in york, pa. i am staying up nights to feed baby zachary and keep his cries to a minimum. during the day i nap and take walks and watch the TV show bridezillas and play monopoly futuristic edition. i have freaky dreams and feel cut off from my life in baltimore, making it easier to fantasize about moving other places, making a different life.
i don't even have anything to say. sigh. thanks, livejournal, you are the best for inanity and procrastination. this cafe closes in 37 minutes, i have been here for an hour and a half and haven't sent a single email. some things never change.
things are very simple for me here. but unfufilling. too much tv and processed food. i'll just drink copious amounts of tea and be glad the baby is not mine.
blah
too much coffee
and i have this familiar feeling of anxiety when i try to send out resumes and cover letters
it's like when i used to have a paper due
i would just put it off and off and off
until the panic sets in
or in this case, until they ask for verification for my work contacts
and i am fucked
o man o man
why can't i just fucking do this
um. i am in panera bread on market street in york, pa. i am staying up nights to feed baby zachary and keep his cries to a minimum. during the day i nap and take walks and watch the TV show bridezillas and play monopoly futuristic edition. i have freaky dreams and feel cut off from my life in baltimore, making it easier to fantasize about moving other places, making a different life.
i don't even have anything to say. sigh. thanks, livejournal, you are the best for inanity and procrastination. this cafe closes in 37 minutes, i have been here for an hour and a half and haven't sent a single email. some things never change.
things are very simple for me here. but unfufilling. too much tv and processed food. i'll just drink copious amounts of tea and be glad the baby is not mine.