Why Me?!
This has been quite a week and the semester just began. Wednesday I had bowling, speech and careers (it's to help me find a major). Bowling completely rocks and the teacher is totally cool, speech kind of scares me and I'm a little worried about it and careers is just going to be one of those courses that I'm not going to be overly happy taking, but I'm going to just have to deal with it anyways. Right after I got done with classes I had a WURHA meeting to go to and it was so great to see a bunch of my friends and to get this stuff going. We got our theme picked out and then we went into 3 separate groups and worked on the banner, display, and the roll-call/spirit. I was put 'in charge' of the banner, basically I just make sure that we stay on task and don't get to out of control. We came up with a pretty good idea and I can't wait to work on it and to see what the finished project is going to look like. The only thing that I'm worried about is butting heads with Jon, one of the guys in my little group who thinks he's oh so great, we've already gotten into a few spats, a great majority of them I won. I'm not going to put up with this kids shit and I will let him know that. Anyways, our banner is going to look great and I'm going to make sure of that! I can't wait for the conference!
On Thursday I only had one class which made me really happy and I spent most of the night in Wells with Melissa and then playing darts with her and Josh, granted I didn't win, but one of these time I will! After that we were going to watch Office Space, but instead we went down to Jitters where a bunch of our friends were and we just hung out. Once they closed we went over to Prairie St. and closed them down too. It was such a blast, but I realize that night that most/all of my friends are RA's. It's not that I have a problem with this or anything I just think it's a little strange and really cool all at the same time. I've also started to doubt the whole RA thing for next year too. I've want to be one for so long and since all my friends are and they love it and I don't really know why I've started to doubt it and second guess whether I want to be an RA or not. Whatever.
So on Friday I completely impressed myself by actually getting out of bed and out of my room. It was the one year anniversary of my friends death and I honestly didn't know how I was going to handle it, I was preparing myself for the worst, but I think I had as good of a day that could have been expected. I got up early went and worked out, went out to lunch with some friends, hung out around Sayles for a little bit and then I went into Janesville with some friends. I kind of regret this because as I'm driving in to town it completely hit me. I knew what day it was the whole day and what had happened on this day and everything, but as I was driving along with my friends all talking around me and everything, snow coming and lights hitting it just right... this is how she died, why the fuck am I outside in this weather? I just talked to Melissa about it for a little bit and got my mind off of it and did fine. The Olive Garden was really good. The drive home was a little longer than it should have been but there was no way I was going to go any faster than I needed to. When we got back to Whitewater me and Melissa went and watched a movie by Nick's and it was awesome, I'm highly impressed!
Today was a pretty mellow day, I just completely organized my room, all I need to do is decorate the walls, and hung out with Melissa and just talked, mainly about boys, there's a new cute, nice guy on 1st who has some potential. Anyways, when we were down talking to a friend of ours, who happens to be roommates with the cutie they were talking about how they were going to go out tonight and we invited them up to my room once they were back. Once we got back in the room we decided to go to Prairie St. with Nick and just hang out, which is always a blast. When we got back to Sayles we were talking to my neighbor and the boys actually showed up. It was interesting, all 3 of them had had their fair share to drink. And the thing is that I know better to be around one of them when he drinks because of the way that he gets and I didn't expect him to come visit us with them considering how he doesn't live in this building, but he did and he proceeded talk about something stupid, I can't really remember, but I do know that I wanted to slap him for it. Then a few minutes later he proceeds to tell me how he was at this party and he was telling the guy who was throwing the party how he was starting to like me and all of this crap and now I'm a little worried, I'm not worried when he's sober, just when he's drunk, but now I'm going to avoid him all together. I don't know what to think and it really couldn't come at a worst time. I don't know how I get myself it these problems. Thank goodness Melissa was here when they were all up here and that I could totally spill to her when they left and to make sure that I totally heard what I thought I did, and I'm sad to say that I did hear it. I don't know what I would have done if she wasn't here!
Hopefully I can get some sleep tonight with all of this crap running through my head.
*Jenn*
On Thursday I only had one class which made me really happy and I spent most of the night in Wells with Melissa and then playing darts with her and Josh, granted I didn't win, but one of these time I will! After that we were going to watch Office Space, but instead we went down to Jitters where a bunch of our friends were and we just hung out. Once they closed we went over to Prairie St. and closed them down too. It was such a blast, but I realize that night that most/all of my friends are RA's. It's not that I have a problem with this or anything I just think it's a little strange and really cool all at the same time. I've also started to doubt the whole RA thing for next year too. I've want to be one for so long and since all my friends are and they love it and I don't really know why I've started to doubt it and second guess whether I want to be an RA or not. Whatever.
So on Friday I completely impressed myself by actually getting out of bed and out of my room. It was the one year anniversary of my friends death and I honestly didn't know how I was going to handle it, I was preparing myself for the worst, but I think I had as good of a day that could have been expected. I got up early went and worked out, went out to lunch with some friends, hung out around Sayles for a little bit and then I went into Janesville with some friends. I kind of regret this because as I'm driving in to town it completely hit me. I knew what day it was the whole day and what had happened on this day and everything, but as I was driving along with my friends all talking around me and everything, snow coming and lights hitting it just right... this is how she died, why the fuck am I outside in this weather? I just talked to Melissa about it for a little bit and got my mind off of it and did fine. The Olive Garden was really good. The drive home was a little longer than it should have been but there was no way I was going to go any faster than I needed to. When we got back to Whitewater me and Melissa went and watched a movie by Nick's and it was awesome, I'm highly impressed!
Today was a pretty mellow day, I just completely organized my room, all I need to do is decorate the walls, and hung out with Melissa and just talked, mainly about boys, there's a new cute, nice guy on 1st who has some potential. Anyways, when we were down talking to a friend of ours, who happens to be roommates with the cutie they were talking about how they were going to go out tonight and we invited them up to my room once they were back. Once we got back in the room we decided to go to Prairie St. with Nick and just hang out, which is always a blast. When we got back to Sayles we were talking to my neighbor and the boys actually showed up. It was interesting, all 3 of them had had their fair share to drink. And the thing is that I know better to be around one of them when he drinks because of the way that he gets and I didn't expect him to come visit us with them considering how he doesn't live in this building, but he did and he proceeded talk about something stupid, I can't really remember, but I do know that I wanted to slap him for it. Then a few minutes later he proceeds to tell me how he was at this party and he was telling the guy who was throwing the party how he was starting to like me and all of this crap and now I'm a little worried, I'm not worried when he's sober, just when he's drunk, but now I'm going to avoid him all together. I don't know what to think and it really couldn't come at a worst time. I don't know how I get myself it these problems. Thank goodness Melissa was here when they were all up here and that I could totally spill to her when they left and to make sure that I totally heard what I thought I did, and I'm sad to say that I did hear it. I don't know what I would have done if she wasn't here!
Hopefully I can get some sleep tonight with all of this crap running through my head.
*Jenn*