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I am at work right now. No one seems to need my assistance. No filing, no shredding, no lables to be made... not even any erands to run. I hate feeling unimportant. Therefore, I'm forced to play on the computer and pretend to busy myself with something important. I already finished my book "eating the cheshire cat" that i basically had to read in secret (not sure if reading is allowed...dont really want to ask) so what am i supposed to do now?!! Its these down times at work where i begin to chew on the lingering, haunting thought that i am uncertain of my niche in life. God it is killing me. i can't seem to wrap myself around one calling that i can fully and happily dive headfirst into without looking back...with no second thoughts no nothin. Everytime i am feeling great about a decision, i hear something or see something or read something about that profession that i dont like. When i look a head i don't see myself any where. i see a house, i see a family and i see my bank account empty and the kids getting jobs at an ungodly age trying to support mommy. My husband probably left me because im so indecisive. Im sorry my children! im so sorry!!
alright! 1 hour to go! what shall i do nooowwww....?
alright! 1 hour to go! what shall i do nooowwww....?