Love

[jennjackson]

Well isn't love just grand? You find someone that you care about so much...they care about you, but they had a bad experience with an ex. The ex leaves and he moves on...to me. I start falling in love with him and just about that time his ex decides to ruin my life. She wants him back I think, and I know she doesn't know about me. No one really does. I just know that I have genuine feelings for this kid and I don't want to get hurt. I know that I'm 10 times the woman she is and I shouldn't even be worried about it, but I'm just insecure. I know how hard it is to get over your past when you've been in love with someone. It's hard and it sucks...a lot. I also know that I've never been on the other end...trying to be loved by someone who was just heart broken. One day everything will pan out, for the better I'm sure, but why do I have to go through this? Seriously, I'm playing poker with the worst hand ever. It's been that way for a few years now. I guess all I can do is stop worrying about it and just let things be, right? Like I can give myself any advice. I don't understand that either. If I can figure out Melissa and Kevin's problems, why can't I resolve my own...oh, that's right, because I'm just stupid. I guess this is the part of my entry where I revert back to that good 'ol Krienke saying..."It will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end"....

Valentine, shmalintine...