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There is a really good quote from Into The Wild where Christopher McCandless reflects how life is only meaningful when it's shared. I have to dig up the exact quote, but the statement is analogous with Kurt Vonnegut's message in The Sirens of Titan where he basically asserts that the meaning of human life comes from being used by other people.
This, I think, explains why no matter how much I have fun, learn, and explore New York, a part of me is just waiting to run home to California. Maybe it's dumb and wrong, but I've just never had the mentality to place work at the top of my priorities. I don't expect myself to be an art director someday or to make a six figure income. (Both would be nice, but...) I feel like as we grow, we are conditioned to believe that we must become/be the best, (all for good reasons) but in the end, what does it really matter? Was J.D. Salinger really happy though he was such a prominent figure in literature?
I am doing what I do right now because I think it's interesting. That's how simple it is. I don't need to "make it in New York" to prove I can "make it anywhere." I don't need the cocktail bars or an apartment overlooking Central Park. (Though it is gorgeous...I walked by last Saturday and the stream was frozen!) I realize now that, three years ago, maybe I was never truly in love with the place, I was just in love with the circumstances. I was free for the summer, surrounded by other people of my age who felt the same high of being in the city, and at a vulnerable point in my college career where I just wanted to see something new.
Hm, that's all! The office is closing in five minutes, and I have to run down to Soho to meet some friends for Restaurant Week!
This, I think, explains why no matter how much I have fun, learn, and explore New York, a part of me is just waiting to run home to California. Maybe it's dumb and wrong, but I've just never had the mentality to place work at the top of my priorities. I don't expect myself to be an art director someday or to make a six figure income. (Both would be nice, but...) I feel like as we grow, we are conditioned to believe that we must become/be the best, (all for good reasons) but in the end, what does it really matter? Was J.D. Salinger really happy though he was such a prominent figure in literature?
I am doing what I do right now because I think it's interesting. That's how simple it is. I don't need to "make it in New York" to prove I can "make it anywhere." I don't need the cocktail bars or an apartment overlooking Central Park. (Though it is gorgeous...I walked by last Saturday and the stream was frozen!) I realize now that, three years ago, maybe I was never truly in love with the place, I was just in love with the circumstances. I was free for the summer, surrounded by other people of my age who felt the same high of being in the city, and at a vulnerable point in my college career where I just wanted to see something new.
Hm, that's all! The office is closing in five minutes, and I have to run down to Soho to meet some friends for Restaurant Week!