i feel..........squishy
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why is it that girls on their periods lead to emotional wrecks? not that i'm at that point yet or anything. i always tell you whenever i get my period, and today is no exception. except i got it yesterday, my stomach hurts right now. anyways, something happened today that made me, literally, break down in tears. welll...not break down but i "bursted into tears"...eh, yeah you get it, for apparently no reason. except for what had happened, but it really made no sense to me why i would cry over it. or maybe i do know but dont want to admit it? whatever.
on a slightly different note, my father called me yesterday at work, and is like...so i hear you and your mom are going to some couseling thing. i'm like, what the fuck, i had no idea. he's like yeah, i think she said next friday. but anyways, so my mom had mentioned like therapy, but separate, a few weeks ago, then never again so i assumed she was just talking, but apparently she told my dad about some shit thats going on next friday and she didn't tell me. ai-yaahhh! whatever. i like how its my dad who tells me, who thought i knew and stuff.
so tommorow, i'm going to my friends father's funeral. what a sad event, i will be one of the "receptionists". its funny (not actually funny, but...yeah you'll see), last week (last saturday) i went to my cousin's wedding (where the PRESIDENTS played, yes), and this saturday i'm going to a funeral. lately, a lot of people and animals that i know of have been dying...
happy (kind of) thought of the day: these days are reminding me of how much i love summer in seattle. except for our lack of clean and pretty beaches, everything else is perfect. actually, it's more how much i love summer. during school, everyone knows that summer will be good, but actually living it now is great. there's only so much time left before school starts, which is sad, because this is our last real summer....during our high school years. i wanna make this summer memorable (even though i dont really know how), but hopefully, and enjoy it while it lasts.
that was stupid