Dont Let the Sun Go Down On Me...
Well its been a while, sweet livejournal... i should have never started this thing, but here goes:
Im fucked up, I dont know what to do lately, im so fucking restless, ive got the craziest schedule of all my friends or whatever their called, but im still needing more
of what? i have no idea but im starting to figure it out.... i havent written a poem in god knows when, but here they are;
Mary's Love Song
My love I need you
My friends, they call me a fiend
Its true, its true
Missin you even if youre still in the room
When ya gone,
I can feel my need for you
burnin in my heart,
my lungs
I want to have that Baltimore love thing
I want to share you with the whole world
Everybody knows what we have
Say its bad for me, I should quit
I don’t care, I cant quit
You have a space in my heart for all time
Where have you been my whole life?
How have I lived?
Imagine what my life would have been like
If only I had found you sooner
The misery I have known
Would not exist,
you would have held me tighter
helped me sleep better
Forever Empty
Everyday it gets a little bit stronger
Cuts me a little bit deeper
Every minute sober
Is filled with wishes for just one taste, sip
I lust to feel the wondrous burn
In my lungs, in my heart
I want to be tougher, harder
I want the life ive seen destroy so many others’
Why?
All I can do is sit and ask why
But I really just don’t care
I'm just having fun
Someone will save me soon
(cause we all know I cant save myself)
But my tolerance levels are dropping off
There is no just saying “no” anymore
I want it cause I like it,
I liked it but now I love it
I need it cause I love it
And on and on it goes…
Nothing can fill my empty desires
No matter how I fill my schedule
I still find time, alone in the night
To dwell on the lonliness I feel
What emptiness is this?
It can never be filled!
What liquor can fill it?
What drug?
I’ll take it all in,
All until I can feel fulfilled
But when the bottles are all empty
The pipes down to the ash
I am still empty
oh ans ps me and marcus are going to amherst *fingers crossed* next semester!
that'll be a good fresh start, i hope.
♥
Im fucked up, I dont know what to do lately, im so fucking restless, ive got the craziest schedule of all my friends or whatever their called, but im still needing more
of what? i have no idea but im starting to figure it out.... i havent written a poem in god knows when, but here they are;
Mary's Love Song
My love I need you
My friends, they call me a fiend
Its true, its true
Missin you even if youre still in the room
When ya gone,
I can feel my need for you
burnin in my heart,
my lungs
I want to have that Baltimore love thing
I want to share you with the whole world
Everybody knows what we have
Say its bad for me, I should quit
I don’t care, I cant quit
You have a space in my heart for all time
Where have you been my whole life?
How have I lived?
Imagine what my life would have been like
If only I had found you sooner
The misery I have known
Would not exist,
you would have held me tighter
helped me sleep better
Forever Empty
Everyday it gets a little bit stronger
Cuts me a little bit deeper
Every minute sober
Is filled with wishes for just one taste, sip
I lust to feel the wondrous burn
In my lungs, in my heart
I want to be tougher, harder
I want the life ive seen destroy so many others’
Why?
All I can do is sit and ask why
But I really just don’t care
I'm just having fun
Someone will save me soon
(cause we all know I cant save myself)
But my tolerance levels are dropping off
There is no just saying “no” anymore
I want it cause I like it,
I liked it but now I love it
I need it cause I love it
And on and on it goes…
Nothing can fill my empty desires
No matter how I fill my schedule
I still find time, alone in the night
To dwell on the lonliness I feel
What emptiness is this?
It can never be filled!
What liquor can fill it?
What drug?
I’ll take it all in,
All until I can feel fulfilled
But when the bottles are all empty
The pipes down to the ash
I am still empty
oh ans ps me and marcus are going to amherst *fingers crossed* next semester!
that'll be a good fresh start, i hope.
♥